People are shady and ignorant now a days. NUFF SAID. Deuces.

I'm Sorry. SMH

Why am I the only one feeling that senior year has been a trip? I guess what I'm trying to say is that, this is not exactly how I've pictured how senior year would start out I mean, come on, drama already? It's pretty irritating and useless. I know I've made my decision and I know I can't back down on it now. What's pretty awkward is that I'm going to have to face the both of you either way @ school and of course, I'm not going to hide from you because I know better. For whatever I've done, it's a mess, I know. I just hate the fact that this isn't the first time that's happened to me. I respect and understand your answer. I apologize for everything. I do.

I mean I look back @ the arguments I've had with my ex-best friend. To be honest, the fight over you is pretty useless now because we're not getting anywhere. I feel that arguing with my best friend has been the biggest mistake I've ever made because you and I will quote and quote go our separate ways from now on. -____- I hope this is a big ass wake up call.

This blogger was only made for one person and you're not him. I just felt the urge to vent it all in class.
See you around.

PS: Thank you for lying to me. I guess I do deserve it.

MIA

Body work out starting Monday. (:

UGH. (Insert Smiley)

Hmm.... So you've been on my mind for this past week. Idk why, but BAM! There you are. My summer nights have been enjoyable. Every minute, every hour, talking to you makes me smile. Our lowkey talks make me feel special, but YOU KNOW WHAT? You get mad too easily. Stop taking everything up the butt! You make me feel guilty all the time when words are unspoken. GOD DAMN IT. -.- Jk, God, not you. <3 (:

SMH

What bugs me the most is that majority of the people I meet have the same birthday as you. SMH.
Truth is, I'd rather not know what you're up to than to know the truth behind the flirtatiousness.

I Find This to be Somewhat True. (:

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

& 

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
4. Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

Oh btw, the site is  http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Saw this on Tumblr. LOLed

About Your Asian Girlfriend:

1. Felluhs, asian girls LOVE taking pictures. So expect alot of photoshoots of you two. Don’t worry, you’ll like it

2. Asian girls are most likely to have a blog, if its a tumblr, or a blogspot.  So if your girl is not herself, try seeing those vents

• 2.5 if you did something messed up, then you better expect a thousand reblogs of her post of you being a fool, and all her ladies hating your ass.

3. Asian girls have asian parents. But don’t worry about their dad killing you, unless you are a jerk. First impressions mean EVERYTHING to them. If you can cook, then you are good to go, haha.

• 3.5 when meeting your parents, asian girls are very respectful.

4. If you don’t know what XXI is, you are about to be in a painful coma. Most asian girls practically live there.
5. Asian girls love talented guys. So show us what you got.

• 5.5 If you think there’s nothing special about yourself, ask the girl and she’ll give you a list. Why? because shes your girl, and she knows what she is doing. If you were really uninteresting, she wouldn’t be there.

6. If you treat us differently with your friends, we’ll think you are a pussy. End of story.
7. Don’t you dare make fun of us on our periods, we will rip your eyes out, make you eat them, tear your tongue and hair and burn them, stab you multiple times, and throw you in a frozen lake so you won’t escape. (well, maybe not, but just a big warning, we will turn completely incredible hulk on you)
8. Keep your promises. Its self explanatory.
9. If you make her cry, see number 7 for some details on what her friends will do to you.
10. Act like the man in the relationship, if you make her do everything, you can kiss her goodbye.

Knotts Berry Farm

I decided to go because I wanted to feel the adrenaline rush of the roller coasters. In return, I ended up getting sunburned. FML.

Mild Monday

I think today has been the only day that I've been productive ever since summer started. It was all business; which is good. I hope it's going to be like this until summer starts. I need to keep my mind going. (:

Started off the day with the "Increase the Peace" meeting. My first day being President Co-Chair. I hope to share many tears of joy and laughter with the new gang. The previous one is the one I'll never forget. <3 

After that was the first day of tutoring. I had only 2 kids today. It was lovely! One of my students told me that their brother got shot. I was like ;NKFDHFOIEW[A'GNA';F;ALSFA! Are you sure it's not a doctor's shot? He was like "Nope, a bullet." When class ended, his brother came downstairs to pick him up and I was like "Psssssh, your brother looks fine. He didn't get shot!" & then fail, he showed me his scar and I was like "Daaaaaaaaaaaaamn. story of your life." LOL jk. I was worried. He's like what? 8-9 years old and he got shot on his shoulder because of two men that were acting foolish? Idiots these days.

That's my day. Tell me yours. (:

-______-"

Lowered my self esteem.. I actually never, really cared about my weight until you talked to me. Now I'm actually looking forward to going back to school and getting my body back!

You...

 My status: "I stored you away. Why are you still cluttering my mind with tainted memories? -.-"

"Making the past look better than it was, or not appreciating it for what it was really worth are things that people seem to make the mistake of doing."

-MRivera

His words of wisdom always make my day. (: <3

GG

I saw her today.. I seriously don't get what he sees in her. Sigh

Just because (:

Mother & Father, 
          Just know that I love you. I heard you a couple of minutes ago telling me to go to bed.. but it's summer! I'm not done cleaning the house yet, so I'll sleep later. Both of you are tired, so what don't you two go to bed. I'll take care of the house. Thank you for everything. I don't say it much, but just know that I love you!

Kekeke.

IT'S SO FLUFFYYYYYY. Take me. (:

Happy - Leona Lewis

On the real, I'm over it. If you choose to come back in my life, you better work hard for it. I'm not going to be your last resort even though I was your first before. I know it's hard to go back to the way things were before, but that's how I feel atm. I hardly talk to you anymore because I know you don't have time for me & it's true. You'd rather hang out with anybody else besides me, so why should I cancel plans just so I can hope things can go back to the way they were. Senior year is going to be really different. Congrats to your accomplishments btw. Although, what's the use? Your friendship with her is more important than ours. Seeing you cry and what not because you made a mistake? Dicccck, that's how I felt. She accepted things and you couldn't? I guess what I'm trying to say is that I fought hard for our friendship and I tried my best to settle, but you wouldn't accept it until weeks later. You don't know how difficult it was to dealt with. You said our friendship is hanging by a thread, I didn't agree before, but now I do see it. I think our friendship is only holding because of others. If it weren't for them, you & I would be walking the halls of VHHS like strangers. Passing by each other & not being aware of it all. I miss you.. I really do. I miss having a best friend. Now I don't even have one. Pretty much what I'm missing... I guess it's okay because all I ever wanted is for you to be happy. Seeing how you have so many bestfriends, which one is really going to stick with you for the rest of your life? So I heard I'm gone. You tell me.. How can I cope with that?

Daaaaaaym You's a Diizzzimeee!

I'm content with everything! Went with JZL to school today to get some papers signed and I have chill classes for this Fall Semester. Ecstatic!

1. English - Lawler

2. AP Government - Reinhart

3. Service - Smith

4. Girls' V Tennis - Smith

Saw Richard there and he gave us a ride home. (: While on the road, RLau was planning on switching lanes. Suddenly, a car sped up causing RLau to make a huge turn to the other side of the lane. Terrified and what not, the guy in the car was dogging @ us. Idk about them two, but I was traumatized for a moment. He ended up following us and trying to catch up to us. He literally stopped; causing traffic, just so he can try to talk to us and take a good look @ us. Instead, he gave up and went on his own way. I HAD MY LIFE DOWN ON THAT CAR RIDE TO THE CHURCH. -.- Thanks RLau for the ride & yeah, it's not your fault. Fuck a bitch.

I better be tripping, but I hope this chick isn't talking about me in her blog. For a person like you sweetheart, you cuss like a damn sailor. For one, you don't even know me. Bitch, please. If anything, I knew you for the longest. Psssh, I don't know you. Nigga, says the one who adds me to their pages. Secondly, you should find another job because I was here before you. I do more work than you. The fuck you do? Check your grammar because you don't use the right terms. Excuse my French. *Snap, snap, snap.  [Real immature, I know, but you are one too!] Good day to you, boo.

Straight up fucking traumatized.. 

That's What's up.

Exactly.

Senior!

It's been a while since I've posted an entry. I procrastinated on my other entry, so I decided to make another one. This past month has been so hectic. From being President Co-Chair on the IP committee to my brother's graduation.

I'll never forget the seniors of twenty-ten. They brought sunshine & smiles to VHHS. Two months from now, senior year would not be the same without them. It's been a pleasure meeting you all & now it's your turn to succeed. Congratulations class of 2010!

Summer's coming! I really hope this summer will top last year's. What's so funny is that today is the anniversary of our first date. It was one of the most exciting memories I'll always cherish. Too bad it's over so soon. Maybe you and I were never meant to be, but that's okay. We're stuck in this world to find our soul mate & clearly, we're not soul mates. You've changed my life & I thank you for that. Thank you for making me think twice about giving in to assholes, but really, I hope you realized. (:


Other than that, 2011 sounds gay, but we're seniors! I can't wait to cherish these moments with my 4 favorites. Let's make senior year worthwhile. <3

Que?

John Reyes is gay! Currently @ the tennis room. Reyes is watching me type... Talk about awkward.. ): Going to girlfriend's house later on. (: Not seeing Reyes this weekend, even though he is the cutest guy i have ever met. No, not really.  just kidding, he really is. Just kidding, no he's not. But seriously though, he's not. I think he's so weird & might be socially awkward with others. It's sad, but it's okay.


I found that on my draft. I forgot about this.You can tell who typed what. Friday evening with John.

Let This Be MY Love Letter To You

Cousin Cairo IMed me on Facebook just a few minutes ago & we started chatting about life. This is what led me to Blogspot. Our conversation made me reminisce about the past & really? I didn't want to even consider thinking about it, but I did. Because I did, I came up with this conclusion:

You made me happy. You really did. The things that you've done for me, the stunts that you've pulled, the sweetest talks we've ever had made me smile. Kudos for that, because for once, I felt like I was on top of the world. However, because of what had just recently happened, I am disappointed. I thought that maybe we would have had a future together, but hey? That's a little too far! You made me think twice about us and the feelings I had towards you. Believe me, I did not want to let you in my heart, because I couldn't possibly trust you at the time. As time went by, I began seeing who you "really were", so I let you in my heart. I finally let you in, because I was ready to fall for you. Being so unaware of it all, who would have known you would step all over it? You said that you would never hurt me & that you would be there to wipe that tear off of my face? But in reality, the person who hurt me the most was you.


I know that you're beginning to lose me & vice versa. I hate knowing that you and I won't be able to communicate until years later. See, I hate not knowing what the fuck you're up to, but I guess that's how break ups usually work. I hate how Nothing On You - B.O.B comes up on the radio every day, because you told me that the other girls got nothing on me, so I don't have anything to worry about. I hate how you told me that I Think Of You - Taj Jackson reminds you of me. I hate knowing that My Boo - Usher Ft. Alicia Keys will always be true in our relationship. I hate listening to Best I Ever Had - Drake, because you were the best I ever had. I hate how you were my first boyfriend and you will always be remembered. I hate how you wrote me that poem and looking at it everyday melts my heart. I hate how our chapter storybook/novel ended so soon. However, I love how you walked to my house just to stay with me for the night. I love how you surprised me with 3 roses, a teddy bear, & a poem for Valentine's day. I love how you always knew how to make me smile. I love how you're always so sweet to me even when you had the worst of days. I love how you ended 2009 with a spark and started 2010 with a fresh kick of romance. I love how you encountered many obstacles and still managed to show up in front of my house. It was all worth it. You were worth it, but shit happens. It saddens me to know that I know this was my last chance with you, because I know that you and I can never work after what had happened. You broke my heart & I don't know if I can ever trust you with my heart anymore.

You moved on. I moved on and I'm actually happy with where I'm at. & you know what? Those girls that are falling for you, you're damn right! They GOT nothing on me. I'm not one of those Glendale girls. None of those bullshit drama queens that you have to deal with. I never gave you any troubles or anything until I felt neglected by you. I'm not one of those girls that would stay for appearances, because I do listen to you. I'm here for you. Here for your miseries, for the hardship times, and for your support. I still am here for you & I put my foot on it. If you think letting me go was a mistake, best believe it was a mistake! I was infatuated. I was ready to commit. I was up for our fun-filled adventures. I cared. I still care. If you think you can find someone better, good luck with that, because you lost me. & It still kills me. Let this be my learning experience for future references. FML.

Let this be my love letter to you...

Other than that, 2 more days until Friday! & what?! Marifel works @ LHTP now. (:

FML

I've been procrastinating this whole month and the SAT exam is tomorrow. FML. Last minute study was succinct, but really, I should have studied when I had the chance. Instead of going online all the time, I should have hit the books & take practice exams. Man, I missed out on the sweet lecture time that I get to give myself. Oh well, I just hope all goes well tomorrow @ Wilson High. (:

Today staying after school was lovely. Hung out with PIC + EPhan. I haven't done that in a while. Then towards the end, I was being spied on by fellow peers including my brother. How embarrassing! I know for sure they're suspecting something, but nothing's happening so far. LOL. (;

SL for Advocacy Co-Chair

Reyes: I gotta go to practice!
SL: Why so soon? Stay with me, because I'm not letting go.
Reyes: This is like the longest hello hug ever. Haha.
Reyes: So what? I get a hello hug, but not a goodbye?

Oh man, you make me giggle.Thank you for coming down just to say hello & then leave. Thank you also for calling me heavy. Fuck you! Haha.

Got paid today! Too bad it's only $65. Spending two thirds of it on Jamie's Debut. By the way, which I am excited for! Excited that it's my second sleepover & thrilled to be one of Jamie's 18 candles. <3 I'm currently working on what to say, but I don't want to bore the audience. I have a week and a few days more to get ready. I still remember the first time I met Jamie. She was my brother's girlfriend and we grew closer right after they broke up. Ahh, I remember all the laughter we shared in Lever's class. Surprised that you asked me to be one of your candles. Save more info on the 8th. :P

I've been running errands for 2 weeks already, yet CVS still isn't planning to restock any of their shit. -__- I'm running for cabinet in my service group called "YUCA" (Youth United for Community Action). I'm running for the Advocacy Co-Chair position. If you do attend YUCA, vote for me and I guarantee you, IP (Increase the Peace) events will be as fun as this year's. If you're a senior, you're able to vote as well. So, kekeke *nudge nudge*. If you like to know why I think I'm a good candidate, please come to the YUCA meetings every other Thursdays from 4:30 p.m.- 6:00 p.m. Election will begin in two weeks. All votes count & I'm all in.

Dot Dot Dot.

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze,
& love is a riddle...

For whatever it is worth, chin up and walk proud. Stay strong. All of you.<3

Typical Thursday Evening... No, Not Really:

Anonymous: So this girl asked me to go with her to prom.
SL: Uh huh and?
Anonymous: & I said no. Do you want to know why I said no?
SL: Uhm, why?
Anonymous: Because I want to go to MY senior prom and go with YOU.
SL: LIAR!
Anonymous: No, I'm not.

You better not be lying. Freaking throw ice at you again if you are. LOL. (:

Giggled.

SL: Open your eyes and you'll know what I mean
Reyes: They are open, but all I see is you (;
SL: You're cheesy & lame, but I like that. (;

Highlight of My Day

PIC & I prank called @Soojin 25 times. She thought someone was playing mind games with her. GG <3

Holy Macaroni!

I haven't blogged since... Let's just say since a long ass time.  I've been completely out of my system lately.  I've put my school work & classes before anything, since junior year is the toughest year.  I can now see what the previous Juniors meant. I feel their pain!  SAT Prep classes are over soon & with great appreciation, I thank my tutors for putting their time into helping me prep for the SAT. My goal is to get @ least a 1790.  Perhaps a 1700. *Cross fingers* May 1st is coming soon. Wish me luck!

For the past few weeks, I've been catching up with my frienemies/exes whom they are now called my friends.  I thought a lot about the situations I've dealt with in the past & I finally realized how immature I've been back then & that it's time for a change. I recently apologized to my ex boyfriend, telling him how stupid I was back then.  I told him that I'm mature now & looking back in the past, makes me realize how idiotic I acted towards my peers. I admit, I loved the attention, the whole "cool" attitude talk, the "hierarchy/social status" @ school, etc. After seeing how I was back then, I feel lame.  Being fake, no real talk was the old me.  I mean, who wasn't once like that?!  But now that I've seen the clear picture, I don't care about it all.  I still want my reputation to remain swell rather than being a total bitch.  I'm glad that he accepted my apology and we're in good terms now. I told him that I blamed everything that I've done in the past and that led him to change who he was & look how far he's gotten now! I'm proud of you JC for staying strong & again, sorry for my stupidity.  If I only had that mindset back then. Lol. (: & as for DAU, I've finally decided to let go of the past and actually try to be your friend again. I'm still shaky on that, but I'm working on it.  Even though you were once my best friend, I'd like to just settle as being friends.  Seeing who you've been hanging out with lately, made me realized that you're not as bad as them.  They make you look like an angel compare to them. Good for you! & yeah, for those who are reading, I have changed & if you don't want to get to know me, then I'll accept that as well.  I'd like to get to know you though.

I also like it when people vent to me. I'd like to help you with whatever you're dealing with. It's my pleasure to give you advices; that's if you want any. Just IM me @ ladiixclumsi3, facebook me, or find me walking around the halls of VHHS. (:  New faces are a + for me.

Amen

I miss people from the past and how things were a long time from now. I remember all the fun times I shared with those people and I miss what they call the good old days, but to be honest they never made the effort to be in my future so why should I always be the one running after them? It does hurt to know that I fought to keep them but they never tried. I doubt things can ever be the same but that’s life. I still hold the memories, however its time to focus on the ones who have been there through and through.

[Reposted]

When someone walks out of your life, let them. There’s no use in wasting your time on people that leave you. What you make of yourself and your future is no longer tied to them. Yeah, you may miss them. But remember that you weren’t the one that gave up.

[Reposted]

Chewsday

I'm in the process of recovering of what's been thrown in my face for the last couple of weeks. I must say, it's been extremely overwhelming, but it indeed increases my strength & my ability to hold my shit together. Although things have been pretty rough lately, seeing how my peers are content, it puts a slight smile on my face. Shit happens, agreed? Hopefully, after what has happened, it won't come back to bite me in the ass later on. A broken heart is better than a broken friendship. (: 

Have faith & never doubt yourself.

Since my counselor did not give me a U.S. History class to take this term, I am forced to take it during summer school.. I think it's better than learning it for the whole semester. There goes my summer. I have a few more classes to take senior year & I'm done! Let's hope I can actually chill next year. That most likely will not happen since I'm going to be extremely busy with college applications and what not. I'm kind of excited for senior year actually, but I figured once I'm a senior, I would not want to leave high school. I'm really going to miss my senior friends. They were all freaking awesome. <3

"Missing someone isn't about how long its been since you've seen them last or the amount of time since you last talked. It's about that very moment when you are doing something and you wish they were right there with you."

Alas, SPRING BREAK is almost here! <3333333

Excited?! I AM!

Day One

 Hot as fuuuuuuh! CAHSEE day, meaning staying in 1st period the whole day w/ no Inai! I freaking got a 75 on my Stat's test, when I thought I aced my test. Tsk, tsk, tsk. I blame my little stupidiotic errors. Anywho, work was great! The most misbehaved child was an angel today. Thank you Buddha for this. <3

Travis Pierce, Happy Birthday!

 Bestfriend,
It's a bit awkward, I would have to say. Venting to close friends about the situation made me feel a lot better. Even attempting to hold back the tears was already difficult enough for me. I need to stop crying. It makes me seem more of a little bitch. Yeah. No more crying. After letting it all out, I feel that I must move forward and let it be. As long as you're happy and what not, I'm here for your support if you need any. Another apology.

Love, 

Sandy Lee

I Didn't Sign Up for This

Bestfriend,

I know what I have done wrong and I can't say that I regret it, because it was my decision. I do know that the past is the past. I've made mistakes and I am sure as hell aware of it. I just do not want us to separate, because you are my best friend and you will always be. You are like a sister I never had and it's truly heartbreaking to know how you feel. I blame myself for the situation that has happened. I'm not letting go, but I am fighting. Fighting until we get this right and fighting for your trust. Like I said, I will always love you and you'll always be my bestfriend.  No one can ever replace you, because you are the icing to my cake. I know you're done with me right now. I've cried my heart out for you like I am right now. Just to let you know, I am waiting for you to cool down and start fresh, because I am ready to start fresh. Until then, I will prove and show you that I am capable of being the bestfriend that I will be, to show you that I am who I am today and who I wasn't before. It does not mean that I have fully changed, but I've grown up and my mistakes have made me stronger. I've realized that our friendship means too much for it end. It can never end. Speaking of how us both are the complete opposites of each other, it makes us inseparable. You and I are meant to be the best of friends til` the very last day I stand on Earth. I love you and this is my apology letter for being a douchebag and dumb bitch.

Written out of love & guilt,

Sandy Lee

P.S.: I will continue to type apology letters and show it to the public until you and I are strong again. It won't be the same as it used to be, but it will do. <3

Blank

I miss him a lot.. More than I should.. < / 3

Think Twice

"If a guy isn’t calling you when he says he will,
or making sure you know that he’s dating you,
then you already have your answer. Stop
making excuses for him; his actions are
screaming the truth."

I know, I know. Lesson learned. 

Accomplished.

I've finally decided to set myself free from frustration and unhappiness. The pain that I've overcome has been such an accomplishment over the past week. Without a doubt, friends are more important in the end. I thank anyone who has been there for the helpful advices and their sympathy. Thank you also for putting up with my bull shit and complaints. I'm actually surprised that you guys put up with my nonsense. <3

I hope for the better and to see what's in store for us in the future. Sure, it hurts. It hurts a lot, but I gotta do what I gotta do. Time to spread my wings again and be that independent bird that I've always been.

Bestfriend's birthday is coming up. (:<

For the Girlfriends:

Girls night out. <3 It was short, but lovely.

Oh man..

Ever since I said yes, I have not been the same. I've been worrying more than I should. The lack of communication has been stressing me out. If you were going to be so uptight with your chaotic schedule, why did you suddenly decide to ask me to be your girlfriend? You should have probably thought about us first, before you jumped into any conclusions. I'm trying to communicate with you each and every day since day one, yet I get no replies. I really do not know how you're living your life right now. Most definitely unsure if you think this whole relationship is a joke. If you'd actually cared, you would have done what you did a few months ago & actually call me for once. To actually show that you are interested in me and that you'll always keep me updated. What happened, dear? Am I less important now? Am I buried underneath all these lies and excuses?

You tell me that I should go with the flow, to push things aside, & to stop over-thinking. Oh honey, how can I not? It's extremely difficult to not assume when you're never talking to me. It hurts. You may not see the pain I'm going through, because I actually put effort into this relationship. What can I say? I'm just here for support. Everyone has their time with you, but when am I going to ever have time with you? I mean, I don't mind being so distant from you, but I do mind the communication. What's the whole point of this without communication?

If things continue to flow by like this, I don't know how much pain I can take. It's barely the fourth day too! Nine months of talking & it already felt like we were already in a relationship. I'm not going to lie, I'm not happy right now. Everything is just a mess. It also breaks my hurt to hear that you weren't going to give in. You have no faith in me nor us & I do. Huge difference. It shows that you don't care at all. I'm tired of breaking down. Change? Si, se puede. Doubts? No more. Just inner thoughts & emotions. Rage? Too much to handle. Understanding girlfriend? I'm trying my damn hardest. Missing you? Every damn day.

When you read this, listen to Joss Stone - 4 & 20. Tick tock.Time's a wastin`.

Blogging is definitely easier than holding onto emotions.

Cupid hates me.

Many are flabbergasted. Some are disappointed. A few are excited. It's okay to tell me your opinions based on what I've been telling you guys. Things happen & apparently, it didn't happen @ the greatest moments of my life, but I'm ready to take a step further hoping that we both can work this out. I've been waiting & waiting you know? So why not see how this goes. (: For sure, I know in the future to come, my heart will be shattered into pieces, but for now, let's see how fun this roller coaster is. He hasn't talked to me today. I'm not worried. He's probably busy with whatever is going through his mind right now. All I'm trying to be is an understanding "girlfriend". So yeah, and the adventure begins! - Britt<3 

I've had many things on my mind lately & I guess I have to stop worrying about the situations that haven't even been encountered on yet. The best thing for me to do is to "let it flow" and when a problem comes, then HANDLE. I'm glad I talked to Bestfriend today. Dropped a huge weight out of my system. <3 Hopefully, she's not hiding any feelings, because it'll hurt a lot.


These are my confessions. Man I'm thrown and I don't know what to do. I guess I gotta keep Part II of my confessions. Booya. I need to confess to you tomorrow. I don't know who told you or whom you've heard it from, but I'd like to know what's going through your mind. Hopefully, you'll accept my decision and see what's in store for us in the future.

Because he asked & I said yes.

Time

Take action & responsibilities.
Intimidated of commitment? Why you scared?
Making the wrong decisions which you'll regret later on.
Exhausted by the excuses constantly given.

It's time to realize that I'm going nowhere. Realization is the key to help me move forward. It's safe to say that things are not going smoothly. I've always had that inch of hope. I still do. That inch of hope that maybe you have changed; that you can prove it to me. Where's the change? I've been waiting & waiting so much that it hurts a lot. Go play the field if that's who you truly are. Jealousy has nothing to do with it. So for the sake of my heart & for future references, if change isn't coming, then I drop this. Time is running out & I'm not getting any younger. Days are passing by & I feel ignored. I'm saying all of this, yet I'm still waiting...

021210

 What a day! Forreal though. Went to school, Emily + her bf came to pick me up to go practice, went to Mickey D's & vent! I've been doing a lot of venting for these past few days, only because it's your fault.

021110: "I'm moving to San Diego."

How the hell are you going to do that when you know it's fucking hard enough for me to deal with the situation that I don't see you enough already? Pretty much disappointed. *Sigh. I didn't want to believe you, but the gullibility inside of me was ready to believe. Called you Thursday night to straighten things out. Sounded like you were being shady about the whole situation. Settled a date to talk on Saturday[Today].

No texts/nor calls that day[Friday] until 11:11 p.m. You asked me if I could come outside for a while. Shocked, I was, that you were already downstairs waiting for me. In my mind, I had quite plenty of things to say straight out so I would not have to deal with "mending my broken heart" later on in the future. I came out with my hands shaking, heart aching with a disappointed look. You were there smiling. My mind was saying "Wipe that smile off that face boy, or I'll do it for you." Took a walk around the block & I asked why did you come over & what's up with the whole San Diego bullshit.

You: You might hate me after I say this..
Me: What if I already do?
You: Lol. What? Uhmm yeah, about the whole San Diego thing... Happy early...April Fools Day.. Hehe..
Me: -_________-" You're a douchebag. *walks away

I was walking towards Lincoln High. I noticed that you stopped following me & I was like "Oh shit, do not want to get kidnapped." I walked towards the apartments and I see you coming towards me with stuff in your hands which was not there a minute ago. I backed away saying "What is that?! What are you doing?" I knew you were in a rush and everything had to go by quickly so I really do not know what this is for. I'm still clueless. LMAO. Fail.

A teddy bear from Knotts [So Random LOL], 3 roses, & a drawing w/ a poem on the back<3

Okay, this time I was really flabbergasted. You almost left me speechless. You had to go, but I gave you kisses in return. I have to say, you disappoint me at times, but you somehow always manage to turn it around.

You'll probably hate me for doing this, but too bad.

The very first day we met,
is a day I'll never forget.
My feelings towards you,
is what makes this so true.
Like a complex origami to be unfold,
in it deeply amorous throughout word never told.
Like a riddle waiting to be answered,
giving you hints but still left unanswered.
Hearing your voice in years,
was like music to both ears.
The way you make me laugh and smile,
is partly why you're so worthwhile,
When you're sad I'll make your frown disappear,
and when you cry I'll be there to wipe your tear.
You're the most beautiful girl I have ever seen ,
and if you let me be yours I'll make you my queen.
An angel God sent from above,
for whom I will truly ...

You're so unpredictable. <3 I went online to check the meaning of the roses of why you gave me 3, but they all came out with different answers, so I might as well just ask you. I don't know if they're dark red or just red. I checked all over the bear to make sure there wasn't any cameras of some sort. Hahaha, I always do this. Anyways, you're still gay for pulling that stunt. -___- It's not FUNNY! Was suppose to see you today, but it failed once again. Still leaving me thinking...

It's Chinese New Years in a couple of minutes! Too bad I'm on my rag. OH NOOOOO. Oh right, it's also Valentine's Day. How awesome is it to have both holidays on the same day? -____-" NAHHH, not like it would matter to me anyways. :P Anyways,

Sun Neen Fai Lok(:

New Semester, New Classes

Apparently, Ms. Minke gave me:

1st: H Statistics ; Mojica
2nd: Drawing ; Staley
3rd: Chemistry ; Mendez
4th: Keyboarding ; Inai

I'm in desperate need of a U.S. History class. I'm hoping Ms. Minke would summons me in to change my first to a U.S. History class. Most definitely, do not want to take History during the summer. Although, I'm really looking forward to taking Stats. It's chill in that class. I like it. (: I'll see what Minke has in store for me.

Sloth, one of the deadly sins, have invaded my determination & has increased my procrastination. What a huge failure. I must start focusing on my academics rather than my social life. I must sleep early now. My bedtime is now @ midnight. -_____- I need to start sleeping @ 10 or 11 p.m. instead. Oh boy, I miss English class. It was memorable & fun. I miss reading novels. Which reminds me, I have to finish the books that I haven't finished reading yet.

CNY is coming up in a few days! So is Valentine's day. Anybody find their valentine yet? (: Awestruck for the ones who did. I was listening to the radio today and if you wanted to buy flowers for your valentine, you should go to www.proflowers.com. Order some lovely flowers &/or chocolates for your valentine. Roses guaranteed to last about a week. She'll be flattered. Somewhere around the corner  should be a code box. Type in "Strawberry" as the code & you'll get a discount or some sort. Thanks to the "Steve Harvey Morning Show." (: Just a tip for the guys out there that do not know what the eff to give.

:l

At times I wish I couldn't understand Cantonese. That why it wouldn't hurt as much to hear what my parents argue about.

Cal. Final

Bombed it, but whatever. I feel relieved. After knowing how much I suck @ this subject, it's time to move the fuck on. (: Absolutely ecstatic about Term C & D. Class w/ JZL/PIC. Finally! I don't get to manage the Boys' Tennis Team. What a bummer. I needed to take a "Technology" class for graduation requirements. I haven't taken any Art + Technology classes yet. It's about time I get it over with during Term C & D.

1st: Painting ; Staley
2nd: U.S. History ; ?? < Peterson perhaps?
3rd: Chemistry ; Mendez. [ Do not want to take Physics for CSTs. LOL Might as well take 4 years of Science]
4th: Keyboarding ; No clue.

Easy, breezy classes! I'm excited! Hopefully, I'll raise my 3.78 GPA to a 3.8. Please Canny, give me that damn A. I need it!

P R A C T I C E ; Need to work on moves, Sandy.

No escuela en el lunes!

[It's been a month & a few days. Finally, I'll get a chance to see your face again. (:]

Vent, Vent, & S`more Vent

I feel so heartbroken & overwhelmed lately. I just need to get everything out of my system & just confess what I truly feel. Since hiding my emotion is still a plus, I think it's better to just let everything out, so I can just focus on my main problems.

A few days ago, Q and I took a walk around our neighborhood. If you're reading Q, I enjoyed that walk. (: It actually made my night.We talked & walked for a while. He suggested some advices to me & I took them. I've actually been thinking about it like everyday. Thank you. (: Just now, talked to Travis <3 & he also gave me some advices.

Anyways, I'm walking through the halls of VHHS, pacing from the main hall to Suffel Hall, coming down from there to walk towards the Knapp Gym, passing the student store, to the cafeteria, walking out of it, to the tennis room, & all I see are couples here or there. Every time I pass by, they're either smooching or cuddling. I go "Aww, that's cute. Now can you move. You're in my way love birds." [Not literally, I'm not that of a bitch]  I do feel that "awestruck" feeling though. Awww, cuties! Tehehe. I compare that to my love life. It's like FML. Thanks for rubbing it in my face! I guess what I'm trying to say is that it's surprisingly, extremely difficult to be interested in a certain someone whom you do not see everyday. It sucks to know that the only possible communication during the day is through technology.

I know you're busy everyday & how can you possibly have time to talk to me? My heart sinks just knowing that I didn't talk to you for the whole day. Just one text a day will give me a sign of relief. As I'm typing this, I'm thinking of the time when my friend wrote something to me like this. My reaction was "O.O". Fuck that shit, I don't want to sound like a creeper or anything. LOL. Danggg it, I get so off topic! Anyways, at times it makes me wonder if I ever cross your mind during the day or do others catch your attention. I hate it when our conversations die now a days, & we have to bring it back up somehow. I just hope that I'm not gradually slipping away from you & vice versa. I hope it never happens. I'd like to sit down with you & just chat until we fall asleep. I absolutely hate it when I always have to vent about the same subject whenever I'm feeling insecure.

I remember I didn't have to dealt with any "boy issues" until you came back into my life. Knowing that I haven't felt this way in a super long time, it's all new & fresh to me again. I'm WEAK again.

Urban Dictionary :

Missing someone isn't about how long its been since you've seen them last or the amount of time since you last talked.
It's about that very moment when you are doing something and you wish they were right there with you.

 

Fuck, I hate this feeling. LOL BOO. There's a couple of reason why I decided to type this tonight :

1. There is a huge fucking spider in the bathroom & I'm afraid to go ninja on it. It's keeping me away from showering.

2. Like I said, I had to vent.

3. Wanted to thank Q & Travis. (:

4. Haven't blogged like this since forever.

5. Daddy isn't coming home until later on, which means I'm forced to go Ninja in my bathroom & go hunt the mother `effer. Damn it!

They Got Nothing On You

Gotta get outta here. Far away from you. Now I'm going cross country.

Just got out of the windy city

Going through the desert

Gettin` away from your love.

Has been playing on my Pod for half the day. Oh man, I <3 Jackie Boyz. As a matter of fact, our work out song is by them. Hahaha. To the left, left, left, on the right, right, right, in the back, back back, on the side side. Good job girls. I like our dances. (: I just need to make more choreo for Trey Songz.

Haven't had the chance to vent on Blogger, or actually have the time to type on the daily basis. Once again, I bombed yet another exam from Calculus. That's it. I lost faith in this stupid bull crap. I GIB UP. ):< I'm not going to make it to Term C/D. FUCK IT. I hadn't realized I suck so much @ math, until you proved to me that I did. Calculus owned me. Yadayadaya, I must GTFO.

I need to: 

Go to the movies w/ him.

 Laugh hysterically w/ him soon.

Call him "Cutie Patootie".

Hold him tightly.

See him.

- Do you see a pattern?[Henry from "What I Like About You"]

Henry: Henry, Vince, Ben, Vince

Henry: Do you see a pattern?

Holly: The pattern IS VINCE!

-Hahahaha, oh god! I miss that show.

 

 I hope I'm not getting too attached. I am just as afraid as you are of the future. Let's make it worth while. <3

Wet Thursday.

Hahahaha. Sigh.

Rain rain,

Go away.

Come again another day.

I'm excited for manana. It's the Girls' Tennis Banquet. Get ready to pig out @ Sizzlers. Weee` Although tomorrow will be raining, we'll make the best of it. Best believeeeeee. After tomorrow, we won't be having the senior girls with us anymore. ): Fucccccccccck, I'm going to miss you guys.

Volleyball practice tomorrow @ El Sereno. GG. Tell us a day before. x___________-. GREAT JOB. Then the next day is Ip meeting. Hopefully, I have enough time to take the metro to Glendale just for Megan. <3. If I don't, I'm seriously sorry. I'll make it up to you. (: It's raining super hard right now. I don't like it. Homework time! No time for blogging. DAMN.

Tehehe.

http://5.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_kuzqd2FcEe1qzkpfdo1_500.jpg

(:

Success!

I have finally accomplished my goal of not drinking any type of soda for a year. It was actually on the 16th of January, but I got lazy to blog so I'm blogging now. (: I'm trying to go for another year, but I'm thinking I'll drink some occasionally.

Two days ago, Britt came over to hang out, because we did not have anything else better to do. We didn't have plans either. She came to mi casa & I showed her the photos of the Won Kok restaurant. Yes, it's still running through our minds. While she was looking @ the photos, I was doing laundry which took an hour. LOL sorry boo. After laundry, we were craving for snacks, so we walked around Lincoln Heights to buy food. We went inside the 99 cents store to grab two bags of chips. We stepped out and Britt noticed a man sitting down selling these yarn bracelets thingy that everyone happens to have now. I know Bestfriend has one. Anyways, that man was a total douche bag. He constantly kept on making racist jokes & pulling the whole "I want an Asian girlfriend" shit. I mean he was chill & all, but the racial comments was pretty annoying after the second time. Britt said she wanted to buy one, but she didn't have enough money, so the guy was like "If you give me the bag of Funyuns, then I'll make you the bracelet." We were like holy shizzzz, that's a great deal. But we ended up not getting the bracelet, because he took forever with the first customer & he skipped us. Anyways, he cracked a stupid ass joke, but I laughed my ass off.

Walter [LMAO, this girl called him that, because he looks like a Walter]: What did the gay horse eat for breakfast?
Britt & I : Uhh? I don't know. What?
Walter: *snaps finger. Haaaaaaaaaaay.
Britt & I : HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Stuuuuuuupid.

This guy wants & is craving for an Asian girlfriend. *Sigh. He wanted us to teach him how to speak or write chinese, but we told him that we were like not fluent. We're like brain-washed Asians. Yeah, he was a total creep. He knew how to say I <3 you, free, & something else. When we left, he kept on shouting that out. We were like "Sigh, what a creep." He looked like a bum, but he says he has a house in Lincoln Heights. Oh geez, I hope I don't run into him again. We basically kept him company & talked to him for an hour, & we didn't even get bracelets. LMAO What a damn fail. Story of my life. Hahaha.

Kelly wants people to do the Asian Pageant w/ her. (: So please do.
Act: Hip-hop Dancing.



Damn you Michael Matienzo, I miss you. -_______-"

At times, I feel...

"In consequence, I’m inclined to reserve all judgments, a habit that has opened up many curious natures to me and also made me the victim of not a few veteran bores."

- The Great Gatsby [F.S.Fitzgerald]

Friday Night..

Congratulations to the Lady Dons of VHHS who won their games against Canoga Park. Stayed after school to watch Bestfriend's game. Loser didn't even notice us & thought we weren't there @ the game to support her. We even bought her food! She ended up munching on her subway sandwich. Gave food to Benita to gobble up, then Bestfriend says she wants the food. GG. Had some awkward + LOL moments.

Later on ....

We played freeze tag in the dark, on the quiet/deserted looking streets of Tujunga. We were waiting for the school bus to come & take us home, but we were thinking of having some fun before we leave. Hell to the yes it was fun.    

Objective: Get runned over by a car, you're it. LOL no, not really.

 We ran & ran & ran. Fun exercise. Too bad the bus came early & we had to leave. We should do that more often, better yet, you should try this. It's so fun. You have no idea.

 You know what this section is about.

"... I'm not sure if I've told you this before, but out of all the girls, you are most definitely the one I care the most about."

(: I would type what I wrote, but I stupidly, accidentally deleted it. ):

P.S.: I hope this is the truth & that it'll keep my emotions in better health, because I'm allergic to bullshit.

Happy Birthday to my dear, Marjorett Ann Vital! <3

Thursday Night.

Who has time for blogging now a days? D:

What a Drag..

School. Work. Bruised nose once again.w

Lucky me, looks about right for tomorrow again..

GG, I've seen them enough @ school; now @ work?! You have got to be kidding me. Jesus Christ. Are you playing with me? ):

It's been 4 days...

& I haven't blogged since! I've done a lot in 4 days & I don't want to type everything down. LOL. My lazy ass is not up for it. A huge sigh coming in, because school resumes tomorrow. I don't want to go back, but who does?! Damn, if only school resumes next week, then I would have been a happy camper. This winter vacation has been the best, but what a nice way to end it by staying @ home doing nothing. Anyways...

Two days ago, I was out with a few of my girlfraaaaaans. I helped cleaning Emily's room except for her desk. Now that, she's on her own. LOL sorry. Cleaned her corners, her bed, her bags, her closet, & goddammnnnnnn, took about 2 hours to get through the corners. You can finally walk in there. :D Britt came over & her papa dropped us off @ Smart&Final Extra to buy ingredients for us to bake homemade cookies for Dennis & Trinh. The cookies were bomb. We also made our own frosting too! Success! (:

Dennis & Trinh picked us up from Emily's casa & we were off to Vittoria's Restaurant in Alhambra. Bomb Italian food, except the alfredo sauce was thick. Britt wanted to share some scary/haunted stories to bring up the conversations. Those who grew up in Lincoln Heights from the early 1990s would know about the Won Kok restaurant before it got burned down. It was located across the street from Bank of America next to "The Airliner" & a dentistry or a Barber Shop. Now it is reconstructed & now called "Arroyo Vistas Medical Center". Every Asian in town would go to Won Kok restaurant to eat Dim Sum in the mornings or have late night parties or weddings. Surprisingly, last night I just found out that my parents had their wedding reception in that restaurant on November 23,1991. Anyways, besides that part, that restaurant was history. It got burned down twice. The first time was in 1984. The former owner, Vincent Hom was murdered in that restaurant; I believe second floor. He was burned to death inside the building. Second time, was an unknown accident that caused another fire. Apparently, now this place is "haunted". You hear kitchen noises in a secluded room on the second floor. Dennis said that it was "rats with their spatulas". HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. We drove by there & by far it looks like one of the creepiest building in town. It's a trip. I found at least 30 photos from the restaurant & it is not how Britt or Emily described it. CSI : Chatroom Scene Investigation. HAHAHAH stupid. I've been researching and researching, but found nothing. It's definitely a trip. Every time I pass by this building, I'm going to think what could have been or maybe something or someone somewhere can give me a sign or anything to this unaware about. Britt & I have this bad vibe that if I enter in, we're going to bring up something that should be untouched. We're probably going to disturb Vincent Hom & he's going to give us a paranormal experience. Eeeeeek, yet we're so curious.

This weekend, as you can see, I've been bored. I've searched up the history of Lincoln Heights, & it's amazing. This town has been one of the oldest town in Los Angeles. Best believe, we use to be a town filled with wealthy people & their Queen-Anne Victorian Mansions. That explains all the huge mansions that have been constructed to apartments. I hate that. Also found out that we use to have a prison by Goodwill. Mabel & I were searching things about this jail & now it is "haunted". Mabel has the balls to look @ videos of the haunted prison. I finally did, because I was curious. Yet another bad vibe about this place. If only I went back to that time of the life, I would love life. People now living in Lincoln Heights are now destroying this town w/ their pollution & violence. It went from high-classed to the ghetto. *Sigh. I would add more but there's too much history about this town & I love more to keep researching about it. Lincoln Heights <3

I actually ended up typing a butt load of shit & this is just the beginning. LOL. Going back to work tomorrow! Hopefully, I'll get my kids again. I love them. <3 I miss my partner too! MM talk later on. (:

What's Your Happiness?

Woke up, flipped the channels, & started watching Rachael Ray. According to Doctor Happy Lady, 50% of your happiness is already a set point from your genetics, 40% of your happiness is controllable, & 10% of your happiness is based on life circumstances. Those life circumstances you can not control and are usually from an accident, death of a family member/friend, break ups, recession, & etc. But in those 40% you can actually turn your frown upside down by smiling & actually set yourself in a good mood. Just a little tip from the show. (:

I've realized that the only way I can ever be happy is when others surrounding me are content. If others aren't, I feel obligated to change something, to actually do something to cheer them up. It does not matter whether shopping, playing video games, watching a movie, cooking, or even spending time w/ them makes them happy. As long as I feel like I'm needed in their life, I'm set to do my job.

You're stuck on me and my laughing eyes
I cant pretend though I try to hide
I like you. I like you.

I think I felt my heart skip a beat
I'm standing here and I can hardly breathe
You got me. Yeah, you got me. 

-Colbie Caillat 

 

Super early morning talks with a boy w/ down syndrome. Hahaha. Lasted 3 hours, 50 minutes, & 27 seconds. Both fell asleep on each other for almost 2 & a half hours. Didn't talk much, but at least we did.

Oh Baby!

My soldier died on me yesterday ): I've had my baby for about 10 years & it finally decided to die on me this morning @ 2 AM. Stupid brother blamed it on my IPOD. Saying that the device made the computer lag while he was watching a movie. So stupid ass decided to press the shut down button. You're not suppose to press that button unless it's for a legitimate reason. It automatically crashed when we tried to put it on safe mode. Luckily, brother revived this baby. Laptop that has been idle for 2 years has finally revived. Bye bye Log Viewer. Bye bye music. Bye bye Saved Photos. Bye bye documents. 3. Life's a bitch. Bad Karma. GG.

William reads my blogs. (: He also likes to assume things. Hahaha. Now watching The Omen w/ JZL. Our list @ http://horrorlist100.tumblr.com

MM says...

He reads my blogs even though he thinks blogging is boring. Yay! (: I hope it was not the first entry blog that made you think. I really hope it wasn't. As you can see, it was way before any of this had happened. "It's Nothing" always refers to something depressing. So, please? I really hope it was really nothing. (:

Community

Emily, JZL, & I arrived @ Steven's house looking like sorority sisters w/ our outfits. LOL! We had our "Community" hoodies on w/ jeans + Vans. Sorry Britt <3. Still love you! Happy 18th Eddy! I <3ed your cake though. The strawberries were bomb. I've never tasted any strawberries sweeter than that! Yummy! Everything was bomb, except we didn't get what we wanted. ): It's all good. NEXT TIME! All of us were having a great time until Tommy showed up w/ this white bitch that ruined everything. I mean she was chill at first, but SHIT, after an hour of her annoying ass, I wanted, actually all of us wanted to deck her. x_____- She would not shut the fuck up. After the whole incident that happened downstairs, we had to go upstairs. BITCH STILL WOULD NOT SHUT THE FUCK UP. JZL & I were going to bust a move.

Girl: *Talk, talk, talk, talk, laugh, talk, talk*
Me: If you don't shut the fuck up, I am going to beat your ass right now.
Girl: Dude what is your problem? And hey, what's your name? LOL!!!!!
Me: -_____- Oh my god....

If you were there, you would not know how much you wanted to bang your head on the wall. ): LOL @ this part.

Girl: What's your name?!
JZL: * Looks at her phone
Girl: Okay, I'm gonna call you cellphone
JZL: -___- It's Janice.
Girl: What's your name?!
Me: Sandy.
Girl: I am so not going to remember that when I wake up.
Girl: What are you holding?
Me: Oh bitch, you are not going to fucking call me BJ.
Everyone: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Me: -_______-

Anyways, besides that, we all had a fun night. Sort of.


MM & I finally talked on the phone. I called to say good night. (: After the phone call, I was content.

Scratch that

Instead of heading towards the Americana/Glendale for the 4th time, MM persuaded JZL to let me spend time w/ him @ Six Flags Magic Mountain. Before the whole cancellation, I had already arranged plans w/ JZL for the whole day + night, because it was the end of 2009, & what more fun is it to spend it w/ my lovely g-daughter. I repeatedly told myself that I was not one of those friends that would ditch a friend for a boy, because I'm not one of those people. ): However, seeing how stubborn he is, he decided to ask for JZL's number & told me that he was going to ask politely. Hahaha, that loser. Turns out that JZL did not mind, & she wanted me to go with MM since I can go with her to the mall any day, but Six Flags is like once in a while. Since I told her that it was all good, & that I already made plans with her, so I'll just enjoy the last of 2009 w/ her, she told me to go, seeing that she can't be one of those friends that "can't understand." That made my heart melt. I know you're reading this JZL, just so you know I'll make it up to you. (: I must say, after returning home from Six Flags, going w/ him was the best idea.

Woke up @ 7:28 AM, because he messaged me on my phone. Barbara[his sister] picked me up from my house @ like 9 something. She is like amazingly gorgeous. NO LIE. LOL (:. I met her&his friends. They're chill. :D It was pretty awkward for me, but I couldn't really express myself yet. If I can't do that, I stay quiet. Hahaha. We arrived @ Six Flags like an hour later. It was so packed that day! It was cold too! I had a lot of fun though. I enjoyed spending time w/ them. Went on :

Superman : The Escape: [2] MM dragged me through the wheelchair access the second time to cut & go again. It was short, but a fun experience w/ the penny drop. Lol. (:

Colossus: [3] They changed the seats. Thank God! No more wooden seats. It still hurt my ass though. D:

Déjà Vu: [1] It was nice. Sat in front w/ MM. Loved the adrenaline rush while going down.

Goldrusher: [1] Wtf kind of ride was this?!

Some little kid: Omg, this was as fast as Tatsu

Me: Not even! This is a baby ride! MUST GET OUT.

LOL @ the guy behind our cart that was cracking jokes.

Ninja: [1] Hiya! LMAO! Not thrilling, nor exciting.

The Riddler's Revenge: [3] I liked this ride. (: Although, riding it during the cold night was not a fun experience. I was freezing my ass off. Rush of adrenaline again.

Scrambler: [1] It's a fun carnival ride. I kept on hitting MM on the chest though. I think I almost crushed him. Blame the ride, not me! LOL ):

Scream: [4] No one was in line for this one. We always came @ the right time. I screamed like hell just because it was called "Scream". I think I was the loudest one. Hahaha. A fun ride!

Tatsu: [2] Favorite Ride! One of the last people on the last ride of Tatsu to experience the thrill for the end of 2009. The lady that sat next to me was hilarious. I loved her laugh. It made me smile. 

Me: Omg Michael! Let's go on Tatsu. I wanna fly! Let's go flying! 

Him: What? You don't fly. 

Me: Yes, you do! You have your legs up and everything. [Totally sounded wrong]

TERMINATOR® SALVATION™: THE RIDE: [2] I have to say, one of the best rides there is. Super fast & thrilling. I hurt my ear on his hard ass shoulders though. D:Waiting was a bitch, but during the process was good. LOL @ the little movie scenes in there. 

Viper: [3] This ride hurts my neck so much. Still fun though. :D

X2: [2] Again, waiting in line was a bitch. I think we waited for like an hour and a half or so, & the second time we waited for like 40 minutes. It's an adventurous ride. You must ride this! Most exciting ride ever. Best feel of adrenaline rush. If it's a cold day, the fire will keep you warm for a second. It's amazing!

Did not get a chance to go on Goliath, Revolution, or Batman. ): Goliath was closed, due to repainting. Did not know where Revolution was & kept on forgetting to go. Batman was closed later when we finally had a chance to go. But it's all good, I had plenty of fun w/ him. We came across the stupid claw machines. We wasted about like $5 trying to grab the PSP or the IPOD Nano or the ITOUCH. We had the right position, but it kept on slipping off every time the claw was getting a hold of it. RIP OFF. We came back & someone got one of the PSPs. I lost faith in that machine after the second time, he wanted to try again. Hahaha.

It was almost time for the New Years celebration w/ KIIS FM + AMP Radio. We heard one of the employees say that there was going to be fireworks when it starts. It was 11:58 PM after we got off Tatsu. We were heading towards the front to see the celebration. We ran over there. We ran a lot that day! Freaking, fuck my jeans. They kept on falling down. LMAO. So I was running with my hand holding onto my jeans while running.

MM: We have 2 min. left. Hurry! Let's go!
Me: LET'S GO! [Of course he'll be ahead of me by like miles.]
Crowd: 18, 17, 16
Me: OMG MICHAEL! YOU'RE TOO FAST.
Crowd: 8, 7, 6, 5
Me: Oh my god, FML. FML FML.
Crowd: 4, 3, 2, 1! HAPPY NEW YEAR! *Fireworks starts, I see the 2010 light up.
Me: NO! DAMN! * Stops running. *Walks up to him. HAPPY NEW YEAR! (:
MM: Happy New Year!

We walked over to the side and there we had our midnight kiss. Woot. (: I mean, we had plenty before but this was special, because it's the start of a new year! We walked to the front, and first thing I hear is fucking Miley Cyrus and her fucking Party In the Damn Fucking USA. Seriously?! Way to start New Years. LOL. ):

*Movin` my hips like "Yeah!" Got my hands up, they're playin` my song*
Me: Oh hell no. HELLLLLL NO.
MM: What? Oh, hahahahahaha
*& Now I'm gonna say "Yeah! It's a party in the USA"*
Me: Way to start New Years! ):<
MM: Hahaha.
*Yeah! It's a party in the USA"...*

We arrived @ the front & I see a whole bunch of people. I wrap my arms around him and he kisses me on the cheek. Some random person came over and he said:
Some Random Person: * Tap, tap* Hey, you should kiss her, it's New Years!
Us: Hahahahaha.

& then you know what happens next. After the excitement & joy, we went home. I could have slept over @ his house, because my parents did not care if I came home late this morning. Wow, that's a first, but then Brittany boo said it was not a good idea. I guess go (:

Me: Okay, I think I'm going to knock out right now. Good night. Thank you for the lovely day+night+the start of a new year. :)
MM: Lol haha. Alright then goodnight. Thank you for coming and making my day/night/morning lol :] sweet dreams.
MM: P.s. I had a lot of fun today :] and sorry for making you jog so much.

Another long blog for those who enjoy reading. I wish you a Happy New Year and the best year to come!