Holy Macaroni!

I haven't blogged since... Let's just say since a long ass time.  I've been completely out of my system lately.  I've put my school work & classes before anything, since junior year is the toughest year.  I can now see what the previous Juniors meant. I feel their pain!  SAT Prep classes are over soon & with great appreciation, I thank my tutors for putting their time into helping me prep for the SAT. My goal is to get @ least a 1790.  Perhaps a 1700. *Cross fingers* May 1st is coming soon. Wish me luck!

For the past few weeks, I've been catching up with my frienemies/exes whom they are now called my friends.  I thought a lot about the situations I've dealt with in the past & I finally realized how immature I've been back then & that it's time for a change. I recently apologized to my ex boyfriend, telling him how stupid I was back then.  I told him that I'm mature now & looking back in the past, makes me realize how idiotic I acted towards my peers. I admit, I loved the attention, the whole "cool" attitude talk, the "hierarchy/social status" @ school, etc. After seeing how I was back then, I feel lame.  Being fake, no real talk was the old me.  I mean, who wasn't once like that?!  But now that I've seen the clear picture, I don't care about it all.  I still want my reputation to remain swell rather than being a total bitch.  I'm glad that he accepted my apology and we're in good terms now. I told him that I blamed everything that I've done in the past and that led him to change who he was & look how far he's gotten now! I'm proud of you JC for staying strong & again, sorry for my stupidity.  If I only had that mindset back then. Lol. (: & as for DAU, I've finally decided to let go of the past and actually try to be your friend again. I'm still shaky on that, but I'm working on it.  Even though you were once my best friend, I'd like to just settle as being friends.  Seeing who you've been hanging out with lately, made me realized that you're not as bad as them.  They make you look like an angel compare to them. Good for you! & yeah, for those who are reading, I have changed & if you don't want to get to know me, then I'll accept that as well.  I'd like to get to know you though.

I also like it when people vent to me. I'd like to help you with whatever you're dealing with. It's my pleasure to give you advices; that's if you want any. Just IM me @ ladiixclumsi3, facebook me, or find me walking around the halls of VHHS. (:  New faces are a + for me.