Amen

I miss people from the past and how things were a long time from now. I remember all the fun times I shared with those people and I miss what they call the good old days, but to be honest they never made the effort to be in my future so why should I always be the one running after them? It does hurt to know that I fought to keep them but they never tried. I doubt things can ever be the same but that’s life. I still hold the memories, however its time to focus on the ones who have been there through and through.

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When someone walks out of your life, let them. There’s no use in wasting your time on people that leave you. What you make of yourself and your future is no longer tied to them. Yeah, you may miss them. But remember that you weren’t the one that gave up.

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Chewsday

I'm in the process of recovering of what's been thrown in my face for the last couple of weeks. I must say, it's been extremely overwhelming, but it indeed increases my strength & my ability to hold my shit together. Although things have been pretty rough lately, seeing how my peers are content, it puts a slight smile on my face. Shit happens, agreed? Hopefully, after what has happened, it won't come back to bite me in the ass later on. A broken heart is better than a broken friendship. (: 

Have faith & never doubt yourself.

Since my counselor did not give me a U.S. History class to take this term, I am forced to take it during summer school.. I think it's better than learning it for the whole semester. There goes my summer. I have a few more classes to take senior year & I'm done! Let's hope I can actually chill next year. That most likely will not happen since I'm going to be extremely busy with college applications and what not. I'm kind of excited for senior year actually, but I figured once I'm a senior, I would not want to leave high school. I'm really going to miss my senior friends. They were all freaking awesome. <3

"Missing someone isn't about how long its been since you've seen them last or the amount of time since you last talked. It's about that very moment when you are doing something and you wish they were right there with you."

Alas, SPRING BREAK is almost here! <3333333

Excited?! I AM!

Day One

 Hot as fuuuuuuh! CAHSEE day, meaning staying in 1st period the whole day w/ no Inai! I freaking got a 75 on my Stat's test, when I thought I aced my test. Tsk, tsk, tsk. I blame my little stupidiotic errors. Anywho, work was great! The most misbehaved child was an angel today. Thank you Buddha for this. <3

Travis Pierce, Happy Birthday!

 Bestfriend,
It's a bit awkward, I would have to say. Venting to close friends about the situation made me feel a lot better. Even attempting to hold back the tears was already difficult enough for me. I need to stop crying. It makes me seem more of a little bitch. Yeah. No more crying. After letting it all out, I feel that I must move forward and let it be. As long as you're happy and what not, I'm here for your support if you need any. Another apology.

Love, 

Sandy Lee

I Didn't Sign Up for This

Bestfriend,

I know what I have done wrong and I can't say that I regret it, because it was my decision. I do know that the past is the past. I've made mistakes and I am sure as hell aware of it. I just do not want us to separate, because you are my best friend and you will always be. You are like a sister I never had and it's truly heartbreaking to know how you feel. I blame myself for the situation that has happened. I'm not letting go, but I am fighting. Fighting until we get this right and fighting for your trust. Like I said, I will always love you and you'll always be my bestfriend.  No one can ever replace you, because you are the icing to my cake. I know you're done with me right now. I've cried my heart out for you like I am right now. Just to let you know, I am waiting for you to cool down and start fresh, because I am ready to start fresh. Until then, I will prove and show you that I am capable of being the bestfriend that I will be, to show you that I am who I am today and who I wasn't before. It does not mean that I have fully changed, but I've grown up and my mistakes have made me stronger. I've realized that our friendship means too much for it end. It can never end. Speaking of how us both are the complete opposites of each other, it makes us inseparable. You and I are meant to be the best of friends til` the very last day I stand on Earth. I love you and this is my apology letter for being a douchebag and dumb bitch.

Written out of love & guilt,

Sandy Lee

P.S.: I will continue to type apology letters and show it to the public until you and I are strong again. It won't be the same as it used to be, but it will do. <3

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I miss him a lot.. More than I should.. < / 3

Think Twice

"If a guy isn’t calling you when he says he will,
or making sure you know that he’s dating you,
then you already have your answer. Stop
making excuses for him; his actions are
screaming the truth."

I know, I know. Lesson learned. 

Accomplished.

I've finally decided to set myself free from frustration and unhappiness. The pain that I've overcome has been such an accomplishment over the past week. Without a doubt, friends are more important in the end. I thank anyone who has been there for the helpful advices and their sympathy. Thank you also for putting up with my bull shit and complaints. I'm actually surprised that you guys put up with my nonsense. <3

I hope for the better and to see what's in store for us in the future. Sure, it hurts. It hurts a lot, but I gotta do what I gotta do. Time to spread my wings again and be that independent bird that I've always been.

Bestfriend's birthday is coming up. (:<