Sense of Relief From Venting

Bestfriend says that my blogs are gradually decreasing its size. Hey, it's not my fault I don't have anything to type about. I'm not being very productive enough to have a fascinating life to vent about. I need new bras. ): Sadly, they're ruined, because I put them in the washer & dryer. Boo! Lincoln Mini Mall's bras are cheap, but weak! Hopefully, mother will take me to VS or Gilly Hicks to purchase new ones. So I was reading my cousin's Tumblr, and she posted this :

Haha, this made my day. I laughed hard when I read the "Warning" caption.

 

Greatly satisfied that my acne is clearing. Thanks to Clean&Clear "Deep Action Cream Cleanser". It's cheap & effective. Guaranteed! Yes, this is a hint that I'm telling you that you should go purchase it and use it if you want a clear face.

School's over in a week for this year of 2009. Extremely excited for Friday though. An hour more of sleep & breakfast with Suk. Thinking about 2009, this year flew by pretty quick. Realized that I've had more fun than ever. I've experienced many adventurous events/activities & still managed to do well in school, wait scratch that. "Attempted". My love life was pretty awesome. Still is. I like it. (: Next up, goals for year 2010. I never actually made any this year, except one. Which is "One Year of Not Drinking Soda". I'm almost done. Just waiting for these few days and I'll feel accomplished! Woot, woot! I have no idea whether I should keep up with this, or if I should stop this nonsense & finally have my hands on a bottle of Cactus Cooler. Oh you yummy, crisped, refreshing, fruity, orange, delighted drink. I will have my hands on you one day & I will not share, I tell you that! Just a minute ago, I thought about Raspberry Iced tea. I think what I'll do is that after my anniversary of "not drinking any soda" has come, I'll continue only drinking water & tea, but occasionally, I'll drink some soda. I haven't gotten my hair cut yet. On December 31st, 2009, it will be one year since I've actually gotten my haircut. Hah. I don't think I'll be getting one anytime soon. I love my hair. Although it's extremely long, I love playing with it every morning.

Anywho...

I've never actually had the time to vent about my feelings towards you, maybe because I really don't give a flying fuck about what you choose to do with your life anymore. I've honestly given you many time & care before summer and last summer to help you through your rough times. It might seem like we don't hang out or talk anymore, that's because I choose not to communicate with you. I've observed you & how you treat your peers. It's despicable. I'm not going to lie, I'm just pretending to care about you & our friendship. It seems that you only talk to me when you want something. How dare you? Do not tell me that you miss me or that we don't hang out anymore every time I see you. That is complete bull shit. If you missed me or that you wished to talk or hang out, why don't you give me a call, a text, or even a damn IM. I find how it's so not even coincidental that you show up every time a break up occurs. I'm not afraid to call you a whore, because you are one. I'm not even going to be surprised if you slept with many other men. Yeah, you are gorgeous. You have many physical qualities that many girls do not have. But sadly, that's all on the outside. Inside you're just an ungrateful, two-faced, needy child. I know you suffered through many loss and troubles through your life. I've said it many times that I will always be here for you & I am sorry for those losses. I still will be here for you, because I keep my word, even if I'm thinking about not giving a fuck anymore. That is because I love you and even though I say I don't care, I do & that love is unconditional. Seriously honey, I really don't know what life you're living & what you've been doing, but all those rumors and lies I've heard are sounding to become more of the truth. It's sad how you treat us like dirt and say we're immature with no gratitude nor respect. If you dare even say that. Get the fuck out right now. We are living our lives as sixteen year old with nothing in the world to care about and you are too busy acting like this sophisticated girl who has to get every material to make her satisfied. Money can't buy happiness, sweetie. The outfits you wear are too revealing, cover up those ta-tas honey, because that does not attract anybody except pedophiles. You say you feel neglected, if you even know what caused you to feel this way. Take time to appreciate the things you already have and stop envying, stop this faking, stop these horrible decisions you're making. I'm overwhelmed with the words you say. Do you know how much it hurts to hear you say " I have no friends."? DO YOU? Who am I? Who are your other girlfriends? Who are your other peers surrounding you during school? Don't you even dare to say that you have no friends, because if your real friends are from ages 18 or older, don't you dare come crying for help & advice. I know you might be thinking "Who are you to judge?". I have the right to damn judge your stupid ass. Talk as much shit about me as you want, just know that your words do not mean anything to me. I've been the friend that actually kept in touch since we were children. I miss the old you & the memorable times we've shared. I don't like the new you, the manipulative things you do, & the arrogance. All that needs change. If you choose to stay where you're at and see what the strangers out there treat you, I hope you realized that it's all bull shit and they only want one thing from you. Your innocence. Enough said.