Tuesday and Monday

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I decided to make one since I have nothing to do right now in the tennis room. (: I was also interested in Janice's Tumblr, so might as well try one of these blog things, myself. So hello blogging world.

The guys are playing chess right now. It's 3:35 p.m. I have about two hours to kill. Liz and Suk are telling Ryan about the nose DJ thing. Hahah. Hilarious.

Today is brother's birthday. Bitch ass finally turned seventeen. This morning he received some lovely gifts from his girlfriend. If I hadn't known what it was, I wouldn't be sleeping with earphones on tonight. GG.

Tennis practice was the highlight of my day. First game was with Dick, Susan, and Linda. Outcome was ( 6 - 1 ). Second game was with Linda. ( 1 - 2 ). Good job, Linda. :D Third game was with Amy. ( 6 - 4 ). That game was exhausting. Best believe!

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William asked me "Sandy, why don't you have a boyfriend?" and I answered, because I didn't need one. From that moment, that very minute, I took a trip down to memory lane...

It was a summer night. I just got out of the shower. I went to my room and I saw your text. I was flabbergasted of how creative you were to ask me that question. In my heart, I wanted to say yes, but in my mind, I asked myself, "How can this possibly work?!" I mean, we both attended different schools and I wouldn't know how to trust myself to trust you that you won't hurt me in the future. I had to go with my mind and say what I had to say. I wouldn't say that I regret that choice, because at that moment, that's what I wanted. But lately, all I can ever think about is how you're most likely on to another girl and that makes me feel stupid for saying no in the first place. I told myself that this was only going to be a summer fling, but that shit got turned around. I know we both said that we'll see how things would turn out for the both of us in the future. I can't help to think that maybe all this time, you were leading me on. But, those stunts you did for me proved me that you weren't. Best friend keeps on reminding me that I should have said yes and that she knew I was going to regret it in the future. She was right. Overall, I guess I do miss you and our times together.

I hope you read this.