Sunshine!

Tomorrow is my Calculus final. I'm definitely afraid to fail the exam once again. I need to focus! Yet, I'm here blogging. GG. I need to be that miracle and pass the term with a C. Believe it or not, Calculus is the first class that I've ever gotten a D in. I've never gotten lower than a B. Mother discourages me. She tells me that I'm a failure @ life and there's no point of me attending a University now. How am I suppose to boost my self esteem and build up my confidence now? I need my friends to tutor me, but I'm intimidated. I feel that they might think I'm not smart enough for them and wondering why I'm even taking a shot @ Calculus in the first place. I envy them. Somehow, the material does not flow through my mind. *Sigh. Wish me luck tomorrow. I need it. Tomorrow is also another final for Physics class. I must say, I'm doing alright in the class. I must get an A to balance my D/Fail. ): Hopefully, Canny isn't going to be a dick & fuck up my A.

Anyways, today was a nice day. No rain. Thank god. My hair was being retarded as usual. I constantly kept on fixing it during second period today. Erick thought I was going insane. After that, it was lunch. Thanks for the hug today. It was cute. Even though we hardly ever talk. I noticed that when it comes to me, you become so quiet. Am I that boring? LOL.

I went home at 1:12 p.m. today, because I didn't bring my clothes to practice. When I got come, daddy was getting ready to go to work, while mother cooked some dumplings for lunch. (: I then met up with Janice to go to a nail place for her toes. (: Turns out she got ripped off and it wasn't the kind she wanted. Hahahahah. GG. Yuca was alright. Saw Dennis & Trinh + Britt & Emily. <3 I miss them.

I'm super ooberly excited for the homecoming game + homecoming. Even though our pathetic football team will fail, I'm ready to have fun on the bleachers with my favorites. I can't wait to see Rad! Haven't seen him in a while. I'm ready to scream my lungs out and root for our cheerleaders. (; If you know what I mean. It's going to be a fun night! Then the next day is homecoming. Turns out that my wish didn't come true. Oh well, I'm still going with my favorites. I can't wait to see everyone dance. Hahaha. Except Janice. I've been with her on the dancefloor too many times. I can tell this is going to be a great weekend, but it won't top the Halloween weekend.

Even though you're so far away, I can still feel your arms around me.