Great Day!

Last night was short but still heartfelt amazing. I don't know if that even made sense, but I'm glad you came over in the middle of the night just to see me. I love how you came when my daddy went home. My excuse was to take out the trash which took about 20 minutes. Parents went looking for me & I had to say goodbye. Damn that MotherJenny! Bitch ass snitched on me. GG. Next time!

Never, never, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever test out fragrances with Janice Li. I swear to God, no, I don't. I'm sorry dude, I swear man, you will regret it! I learned my lesson. She BEAT ME UP ON MY LEFT EYE. GG. My eye stung for a while. I was like holy shit, you hit hard for a little girl! After I got hit in the eye, we went back to room & pigged out on Flamin` Hot Lays. Pwuahaha. It was damn good.

I love it when you tell me "Fun Facts". That way, I learn something new everyday.

You : 90% of women who walk into a department store turn to the right. No one knows why.
Me : NO! That's not true.

& then

when Janice & I entered Vons, I remembered this fact and I was like hmmm, let's try it on her. & then BAM! Janice turns to the right. I'm like NU UH! I'm going to the left!.To the left, to the left, everything you own in a box to the left. LMFAO STFU.

SO Janice & I are setting up a slumber party, but we don't know when. Hmm, it should be fun. (: Cool Whip [emphasize on the whip] + strawberries. YUM! We were also kinda matching today. <3 I can never not have fun with you. IDK why, you're just too cute!

You finally approached me today. You came & sat next to me. (: Then some bitch threw an orange peel @ us. LOL. & then when you went to practice, you approached me again! Yay! Let's see what happens tomorrow.

Homework is a drag. Blogging first! GN.

Michael Matienzo

Hmmmm, you're too cute. (:

18: Lol my love for you is like diarrhea I just can't hold it in
i3: HAHAHA

That's what you get for eating too much, suckaaa. I laughed for 2 minutes, because I've never heard that one before. Anyways, it's late, I'm cold, & I'm doing nothing else but talking to you and blogging.

i3: My sister thinks you're cute. 
18: Lol I think your sister's sister is cute
i3: I think your mother's daughter's brother is cute.
18: You're aunt's husband's brother's wife's daughter's sister's is really pretty

Ahah, you fucked up right there! I'll stop blogging now and continue to pay attention to our conversation. I just realized that I can never stop saying how cute you are. LOL


Him: 4:16 PM. It's boring right here. We're at this church place practicing for a Christmas performance. I'm going to be Joseph.
Me: 4:17 PM. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. How cute!!

- I'm sorry, I had to. LOL!

Shawty's like a melody in my head

I have wasted a perfectly good Saturday by waking up @ noon doing laundry & after that, NOTHING.

- This is my life.

Viernes Negro

Woke up @ 5 AM this morning. Just because of a huge sale @ the mall. I was excited, but by the time I woke up, I was already too tired. Arrived @ GG + the Americana by 6 AM. Rushed into XXI to only find out that they ran out of their promotion coupons/cards. ): Although, they had these really cute skinny denim jeans for only $6. YAY! Richard was following Vera, Janice, & I around the store. Due to our "slowness" of shopping, he decided to shop for his own. Surprised that there wasn't that much people @ 6 AM. After I said that, a butt load of shoppers came strolling by. Was extremely excited to enter in Hollister until I couldn't find my damn fleece. Saw it online the day before, but when I went in, it was a total chaos. Everyone crowding up the clearance section to find clothes! I went back & forth to Hollister for at least 3 times. I stayed in there for about half an hour each time. Michael thought I was crazy. I ended up going to American Eagle to purchase a hoodie that was $20 + 20% off. (:

Saw Suk & bestfriend. I thought we were going to meet up & hang? Guess not. Went to forever 21 @ the Galleria w/ Janice and I see your sister & your mother. It's funny how all three of you look a like. Cute. Then a little bit later I met up with you and we hung out. Nice day to hang out. Too bad we had to go our separate ways for a while, but later on we met up again. Which again was nice. I was satisfied & now your ass is still @ the Americana. Get a life, kid. (:

Partner in Crime <3. Success! Hahaha, I love our moments together. It's adventurous and we're down for any shit. I'm so lucky to have a friend like you. I appreciate having such a great granddaughter. I'll never let you down, I promise! After Yuca, we bought a jumbo size bag of Flamin` Hot Lays, because we dig that shit. Walked back to my apartment to eat & chat. Ended up being too spicy. I ended up tearing and I could even feel the smoke coming out of my ears. Hahaha. Thanks for making my night! <3

Saw some lovely boots @ Lincoln Mini Mall for $18. Better than the deal @ the mall. I like to shop @ thrift stores. It's called saving money & getting a great deal, bitch. :D That's all for tonight. Goodnight Blogspot.

Thankful Journal

Since it's Thanksgiving, might as well share what I'm thankful for. (: Let's start off with:

I am thankful for all the love and happiness surrounding me.
I am thankful for having such great parents that would love, support, protect me from the harm & danger in this world.
I am thankful for having a large family. I like having a big family. (:
I am thankful for my bestfriend. Even though we're the complete opposite of each other, I can see you as my sister that I never had.
I am thankful for my close friends. Without you guys, I don't know who else to turn to.
I am thankful for cavemen who thought of music & sounds. I fucking love you.
I am thankful for living in California. We get the best weather & beaches.
I am thankful for all the previous teachers that have taught me everything that they could teach me. Without them, I wouldn't be determined to strive for the best.
I am thankful for being poor. I taught myself how to appreciate what I have & know that money will never satisfy me.
I am thankful for Ms Manaka who made me write 3 things that I'm thankful for each day. I actually do believe that writing what you're thankful for everyday will make you content.

& Finally, I am thankful for meeting you. I'm thankful for you reading this whole thankful journal. Even if you are or not close to me, you changed me in a way that made me who I am today and I thank you for that. Happy Gobble Gobble Day!

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12803.) When i hang out with you all my worries float away. you're an amazing guy in my eyes, even if others don't agree. telling you how i feel is something i can't bring myself to do. I've come to conclusion that the only thing that's holding me back is my fear of rejection. i wish i believed in myself enough to tell you, we could have something great together.

12687.) I still miss being together with you. Enough said.

 Just quotes tonight. (: Don't feel like typing out my whole day. Feeling a little lazy. Glad to see Megan B. Albano today! 

I hate that I like you, but I absolutely love that feeling when I'm with you. Does that make me weird?

I Hate Mondays

11 A.M.

Changed and got ready to head out to Balboa Park for Round 2 of Individuals. My "good luck charm" gave me a hug and rubbed off his lucky skills to me. [ Like that helped at all. LOL] Played against Carson High. Like I said, partner & I got creamed by the Asians. Thanks guy, I told you that your luck doesn't work on me! (1-6)(2-6) = [0-2] Carson. LOL fail. Partner, you did great today! (: We tried! At least we got through Round 1 & got into Round 2. Thank you for such a great season. I appreciate and can't thank you enough for being my partner. Thank you Richard Smith for being such a wonderful coach. You're the most understanding, dedicated, warm-hearted, talented coach that I've ever met. Next season will be as great as this year. We did it, girls! Four years of being undefeated champs. <3 Reunion @ the banquet in a few months. See you there. (;

I'm super duper excited for tomorrow! Tomorrow is the day where I finally get to hang out with Marjorett Ann Vital. I can't tell you how much I miss her. Since high school started, we separated from each other and unfortunately, we don't hang out with the same crowd anymore. But I'm glad that tomorrow is the day where I finally have a chance to reconnect with her, and tell her all the things she's missed out on, and vice versa. I remember back in middle school, she was one of my close friends during 6th grade. We had a bomb year. <3. Anyways, since tennis season is over, I'll practice some other time, and save tomorrow just for Marjo. I can't wait! I miss you!

A few minutes ago, I had an argument with you. Of all people, you. You're the last person I'd want to pick a fight with right now. I just told mother privately what my issue was and you would eavesdrop to see what's up. I blame all of this on him. If you hadn't told me that you didn't need the checks in the first place, I wouldn't have to fucking owe the bank money, dumb shit. Now you got daddy and I arguing because of this stupid issue. Having him scream out "Fuck your mom, fuck your mom, fuck your mom!" Speaking of which, do you know how fucking stupid you sounded right there. Fuck my mother?! Apparently you did fucking tap that shit, where did you think I come from, you fucking moron! Suck on that, bitch! I know your dumbass is drunk right now, so I don't even want to hear your ass screaming out to the world of how much of a moron I am right now to actually be in debt, when I'm barely 16 years old. Thanks for the support, daddy. I'm glad mother's on my side. You can be understanding at times, but when it comes to money, Hell breaks loose! At least mother supports me on this. Fuck my brother, because of his stupid ass, I wouldn't be in debt right now. Thanks jackass. What a great way to start the week.

Excluding all of the bullshit I had to go through today, I hope there is better for tomorrow. I hope I get Calculus by the end of this term and maybe aim for a C or a B for the grade. I want to succeed and actually figure out how to understand Calculus. Calculus owns me.It's raping my straight A's. My A's need to be saved by my brain, now! I have to borrow SAT Prep books to get ready. *Sigh, junior year is so fun.... It's passing by pretty fast though. ):

I KNOW EVERYONE IS EXCITED AS I AM FOR THIS WEEK'S 4-DAY WEEKEND! 

WOOT WOOT!

Thanks for Saturday morning. I think I needed you here. I needed to set my mind off things. Hope to see you soon. I miss you. (:

Okay maybe

You didn't come on Friday night, but you came Saturday morning. Bitch ass. (:

Friday Night

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I didn't attend this lovely event tonight, because of you. According to your words, you were going to show up tonight. Turns out you didn't. Hah, you fooled me. I had a feeling you were going to forget about it today. I didn't text or call you, because I thought I didn't need to. But hey, who am I to say? I'm not your girlfriend, I'm just your good friend, right? I know you must be thinking, " Well, you didn't call me? I thought you didn't want to anymore." Something containing those few words. I guess it's okay. Afterall, I don't blame you for not attempting to show up. You've made sacrifices and pulled some illegal stunts just for me & I've only done a few. Unfortunately, I can't blame anyone, because pointing fingers would lead to no solution. Therefore, I think I'll just continue on this road of confusion and maybe you can realize that I'm heading towards the middle of nowhere. Then maybe you would give me a hand and help me get off this road and help lead me into traffic so we can stop and just cherish the moments we have together. It's just a thought. See what happens when shit doesn't turn out the way you want to? I end up pouring this out in the middle of the night, because I missed Game Night only to stay @ home and blog. GG

This was especially meant for you.

VHHS Girls' Tennis Team

Woot woot! Great job girls! We did it! Now, round 2 is on Monday. Partner and I played against Dorcy High (I'm assuming) and the score was (6 - 4) & (6 - 1). Great teamwork, Josie. (: Let's just hope that we don't play against huk gway like we did today. She intimidated me. Forreal. It's okay, bestfriend. Even though they cheated you and you didn't do shit, it's alright. Just know that they won only because of cheating and lying. We still love you. (: Partner and I saw the Marshall girls that we played. One of them was annoying as fuck. Thank god we didn't have to deal with them anymore. They ended up winning their match. Playing Carson on Monday. We're gonna get creamed! ):


Ceejay is amazing. :) He's watching me type this sentence right now. What a fag! Q's here now! (:

Blog more later. Feels so awkward right now typing as he reads this sentence.

Glendale + Americana

A Day w/ Partner in Crime <3

Our mission was to take the metro to Glendale to watch "The Fourth Kind". However, due to the delay of the 90/91 metro bus, we were unable to catch the movie. Phillip said it started @ 2:30 p.m., but it started @ 2:00 p.m.. We arrived around 2: 42 p.m. GG. Eh, we'll watch it some other time. The movie doesn't sound that amusing. Brother said it was better than Paranormal Activity, so I'll just take a stab of wasting $10 next time. Was thinking about watching it around 4 p.m., but knew I couldn't make it home on time, so ended up walking around the mall. Spent our money's worth on Great Khan's. We took as much as we can to make it fit in the bowl. (:< Alot of food. Yumm.

Bumped into my cousin. Bump into him way too much. Partner in Crime & I of course couldn't walk pass by the apple store without entering. (:



Entered Victoria Secret. I could not find the VS Cotton Full Coverage bra that I wanted in my size. ): I ended up trying their push-up bras. Ouch, man!  Boy, do they hurt. Now I know why I've always hated push-up bras. Looks good though. (; Too good, too much oomph. o.o LOL I say it looks good on t-shirts, but not on tank tops/camis. Partner looked at me with my bra on only today. GG.

Then went to forever and was in the fitting room forever! Stupid Janice. LOL she paid about 4 bucks more for this shirt I wanted for months. I couldn't find the gray one that says "Hope" in my size so I had to get the white one that says "Faith".

Tennis tomorrow! <3   

Get your damn phone already..

12679.) I'm insecure, paranoid and jealous, therefore, I will never be able to have a normal, functioning relationship with anyone.


12763.) Every time I see you, I can't help but smile. And every time, that smile fades when reality comes back because I remember "I have no chance with him.

-Blogsecret

10:53 p.m.

Common planning was today. Thank god. I needed more time to finish my homework. Went to Big 5 tonight to buy a pair of tennis shoes for this upcoming Friday. Cute employee worked there. Then mother took us to OnoHawaiian BBQ! You don't get that everyday for dinner. (:< Thanks mother for the shoes + dinner!

Extremely excited for tomorrow! <3

See you on Friday, kid. (:

@ the Tennis Room

Janice and I are waiting for our cup noodles to get all bubbly & boiled. :D Just got up from practice and now we're going to gossip. I need to go to Big 5 later for my tennis shoes. TTYL.

Janice: Alg. 2 is so easy! Dude, I'm so smart.

She can't even do a kinder-gardener's homework. Hahahahahaha. GG

2009 Homecoming: " Back to the Future"

What a night!

It started off @ Janice's house. Liz & I were just chilling at her house, all calm like there's nothing in the world to worry about AND THEN when 4:00 p.m. struck, we were rushing like crazy! Grandmother and daughter did mother's hair. (: It came out great. You looked hot Liz. Like forreal. An hour later, Vera, Suk, and Alvin came and we got ready. We ended up lagging that shit and Alvin was having some fun time with Matthew. My hair was fucking retarded, so I arrived at homecoming with the weirdest curled hair.

Before:

After:

 On the dance floor...

Talk about a fun night. Even though the music was so wack, we still laughed and dance our night away. We were all in a crowd showing off all we got on the dance floor.The best part was the congo line, which Fendi started. We ended up getting a crowd to join our line. We raided the Korean girls and ended up grinding on them. They gave us the most weirdest looks ever. I bet they thought it was awkward, but fuck that shit. Break off their grinding/freaking/dancing line. Haha. Bestfriend & I got a picture inside the Delorean.The car was like any other car. Besides that it can talk and that it can travel back in time and in the future. Hahahah. I feel stupid now.

Congrats to the homecoming court. My date and I didn't slow dance. LOL Janice ):. I ended up slowdancing with Vera, Liz, Suk, Martin, & Ceejay. LMFAO. Fail. I use to be taller than Ceejay, now he's taller than me. ): That's only without heels though. (:< Then we went to the small gym to take pictures @ the photobooth for free!I look stupid, because I didn't look up at the camera lens. I looked at the screen. GG

Overall, homecoming was a blast. I enjoyed my time with my favorites. <3 I hope next year will be bomb too! After homecoming, Liz's brother gave us a ride home. I endedup going to Emily's early birthday party, <3 Although, I was late like extremely late, I was glad that I went to her house to chill with Brit & Sam. Even though we didn't have anything to do and all we did was talk and I knocked out, I still miss you guys. Hahaha.

The night/morning was great! I came out of the shower at 3:30 a.m. and I was so terrified to sleep at that time, due to lovely scenes of Parnomal Activity. It wasn't that bad. I ended up shaking in bed with terror written all over my face. I woke up alive, which was good. (: This blogging session took 3 hours for me to finish. GG hahaha.

@ Janice's Casa

Happy Birthday Mother !
Today is your day, so make yourself feel extra special. I hope you like the gift that we I bought for you. (: I know Edward and I won't be here for your birthday today, but just know that we love you. I know that you suck at speaking English, haha, and you're not able to go online and read my blog, but I'm grateful to have you as a mother. I appreciate all the stunts and hassle you had to go through, just because of me. We may have a few, actually many disagreements, but that's just because I'm just another bitchy teenager. I'm surprised you actually put up with my stupidity & my worse attitude. I'll always be here for you. I love you.

So I woke up extra early today to complete my list of chores. I ended up not finishing my load of laundry, because daddy was in a rush. ): Now I'm here @ Janice's. Still excited for tonight. (: See you guys there. Brb!

I know you're going to read my blog, so know that this sentence is for you. LOL loser. (:

I lied.

I wanted to blog for a while.

So I'm talking to this loser on aim right now. You're actually reading my blogs, because I said that you're included in mostly all of them. Haha, you're so cute. Too bad you lost your phone, suckaaa. I bet you're actually smiling when you're reading this, or I could be wrong. Nahhh, I doubt it. I bet you blushed when I said that you were cute. Best I Ever Had is playing right now. You know what that means!

If you have noticed, all the italicized quotes/sayings were for you, smart one. Haha, I'll let you figure it out on your own. I miss you.

Happy Birthday Martin Matreo!

Verdugo Hills vs. Van Nuys :

What a night! Obviously, Verdugo lost once again. It was a good game though. I'm surprised they actually made it to about 30 points? I was digging the cheerleaders. (; Hahaha. That dude worked that shit loud and proud! Janice and I bought 4 packs of licowishes. Damn good.

I was satisfied when I saw you and Megan today. I must say, you look cuter. Even though we didn't talk much, it was nice to see your face again. Like I said, "Have fun at Van Nuys!" Haha. Sucker. I also had fun spending some time with Megan. I miss her. ): I hope she comes back from options!

Tonight, I'm gonna shower, knock out, wake up, do laundry, then off to Janice's casa. I can't wait! Please remind me to bring my ticket tomorrow. I know my dumbass is going to forget. I'm done for tonight, blogspot. More tomorrow!

Your voice soothes me. Too bad I don't hear it anymore.

Sunshine!

Tomorrow is my Calculus final. I'm definitely afraid to fail the exam once again. I need to focus! Yet, I'm here blogging. GG. I need to be that miracle and pass the term with a C. Believe it or not, Calculus is the first class that I've ever gotten a D in. I've never gotten lower than a B. Mother discourages me. She tells me that I'm a failure @ life and there's no point of me attending a University now. How am I suppose to boost my self esteem and build up my confidence now? I need my friends to tutor me, but I'm intimidated. I feel that they might think I'm not smart enough for them and wondering why I'm even taking a shot @ Calculus in the first place. I envy them. Somehow, the material does not flow through my mind. *Sigh. Wish me luck tomorrow. I need it. Tomorrow is also another final for Physics class. I must say, I'm doing alright in the class. I must get an A to balance my D/Fail. ): Hopefully, Canny isn't going to be a dick & fuck up my A.

Anyways, today was a nice day. No rain. Thank god. My hair was being retarded as usual. I constantly kept on fixing it during second period today. Erick thought I was going insane. After that, it was lunch. Thanks for the hug today. It was cute. Even though we hardly ever talk. I noticed that when it comes to me, you become so quiet. Am I that boring? LOL.

I went home at 1:12 p.m. today, because I didn't bring my clothes to practice. When I got come, daddy was getting ready to go to work, while mother cooked some dumplings for lunch. (: I then met up with Janice to go to a nail place for her toes. (: Turns out she got ripped off and it wasn't the kind she wanted. Hahahahah. GG. Yuca was alright. Saw Dennis & Trinh + Britt & Emily. <3 I miss them.

I'm super ooberly excited for the homecoming game + homecoming. Even though our pathetic football team will fail, I'm ready to have fun on the bleachers with my favorites. I can't wait to see Rad! Haven't seen him in a while. I'm ready to scream my lungs out and root for our cheerleaders. (; If you know what I mean. It's going to be a fun night! Then the next day is homecoming. Turns out that my wish didn't come true. Oh well, I'm still going with my favorites. I can't wait to see everyone dance. Hahaha. Except Janice. I've been with her on the dancefloor too many times. I can tell this is going to be a great weekend, but it won't top the Halloween weekend.

Even though you're so far away, I can still feel your arms around me.

Veteran's Day

Today was just amazing. Well, before I started to walk home.

Daddy bought me sugar cookies and a sausage mcmuffin from Mcdonald's this morning. I ate it on the way to Vera's house. After Vera and I left her house, we met up with "Cheeseburger", LMFAO! Some kid on the balcony screamed out cheeseburger, which was referred to Chris. We then went to the bus stop to go to the Galleria + Americana. Chris, Vera, and I were talking about what dream career we wanted to pursue in the future. According to Chris, he wanted to be a Ginacologist. He literally said Gina ( Jyna ). So much for a gynocologist that doesn't even know how to pronounce it. LOL!



I went to For Love to shop for accessories for homecoming. I ended up buying 3 pairs of earrings for $3.80. They had weird looking shit in there. So Janice and I just left. We ended up seeing a whole mess of people today. Janice ended up buying these cute heels that I wanted for $10. Fucking good deal. They didn't have my size. GG. La, la, la, la, let's fast forward.


Went to Footlocker or Footaction to meet up with Chris and Vera and I ended up seeing you there. You looked so surprised to see me. It's been so long since I've seen you, but hey, looks like you're doing good. I finally saw your mother and your sister. You look a lot like your mother. Nice seeing you though.

Partner in Crime and I went to Gilly Hicks and came out with a pair of underwear each. After that we decided to go home. I ended up getting off near Nightingale, because I didn't want to waste a quarter on the dash ride. As I was walking home, I passed by this auto-part place and I saw a mob of middle-aged men staring at me. Fucking creepers. One ended up driving up to me and honked @ me. Fucking bastard. I wanted to shout out "Fuck you", but I didn't want to risk my life for that shit. It was a long walk, but I enjoyed it. All I wanted to do was to reach my destination and start typing my blog. I was passing by Big Saver. Yet again, I had another creeper staring at me. He was in his stupid, damn, beat up car. He went forward a little and stopped. I was like wtf? okay. I resumed walking. He rolled down his window and I guess he was trying to ask me if I wanted a ride, but I had my earphones on and I ignored him. Then he drove off. A block later, he stopped where I was walking and he was trying to talk to me again. Fucking shit, I was scared for my life. Fucking creeper was like following me for 3 blocks. Dumb bitch ass mexican. He finally left me alone, when I was on the phone and was walking with two other random girls. I called Partner in Crime and she was searching for a Nail Place. LOL! Yeah, I learned my lesson. To not walk home alone in the dark from Nightingale to Lincoln Heights.

Happy Veteran's day. We must honor the men and women in the armed forces. <3

Tuesday and Monday

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I decided to make one since I have nothing to do right now in the tennis room. (: I was also interested in Janice's Tumblr, so might as well try one of these blog things, myself. So hello blogging world.

The guys are playing chess right now. It's 3:35 p.m. I have about two hours to kill. Liz and Suk are telling Ryan about the nose DJ thing. Hahah. Hilarious.

Today is brother's birthday. Bitch ass finally turned seventeen. This morning he received some lovely gifts from his girlfriend. If I hadn't known what it was, I wouldn't be sleeping with earphones on tonight. GG.

Tennis practice was the highlight of my day. First game was with Dick, Susan, and Linda. Outcome was ( 6 - 1 ). Second game was with Linda. ( 1 - 2 ). Good job, Linda. :D Third game was with Amy. ( 6 - 4 ). That game was exhausting. Best believe!

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William asked me "Sandy, why don't you have a boyfriend?" and I answered, because I didn't need one. From that moment, that very minute, I took a trip down to memory lane...

It was a summer night. I just got out of the shower. I went to my room and I saw your text. I was flabbergasted of how creative you were to ask me that question. In my heart, I wanted to say yes, but in my mind, I asked myself, "How can this possibly work?!" I mean, we both attended different schools and I wouldn't know how to trust myself to trust you that you won't hurt me in the future. I had to go with my mind and say what I had to say. I wouldn't say that I regret that choice, because at that moment, that's what I wanted. But lately, all I can ever think about is how you're most likely on to another girl and that makes me feel stupid for saying no in the first place. I told myself that this was only going to be a summer fling, but that shit got turned around. I know we both said that we'll see how things would turn out for the both of us in the future. I can't help to think that maybe all this time, you were leading me on. But, those stunts you did for me proved me that you weren't. Best friend keeps on reminding me that I should have said yes and that she knew I was going to regret it in the future. She was right. Overall, I guess I do miss you and our times together.

I hope you read this.