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John Reyes is gay! Currently @ the tennis room. Reyes is watching me type... Talk about awkward.. ): Going to girlfriend's house later on. (: Not seeing Reyes this weekend, even though he is the cutest guy i have ever met. No, not really.  just kidding, he really is. Just kidding, no he's not. But seriously though, he's not. I think he's so weird & might be socially awkward with others. It's sad, but it's okay.


I found that on my draft. I forgot about this.You can tell who typed what. Friday evening with John.

Let This Be MY Love Letter To You

Cousin Cairo IMed me on Facebook just a few minutes ago & we started chatting about life. This is what led me to Blogspot. Our conversation made me reminisce about the past & really? I didn't want to even consider thinking about it, but I did. Because I did, I came up with this conclusion:

You made me happy. You really did. The things that you've done for me, the stunts that you've pulled, the sweetest talks we've ever had made me smile. Kudos for that, because for once, I felt like I was on top of the world. However, because of what had just recently happened, I am disappointed. I thought that maybe we would have had a future together, but hey? That's a little too far! You made me think twice about us and the feelings I had towards you. Believe me, I did not want to let you in my heart, because I couldn't possibly trust you at the time. As time went by, I began seeing who you "really were", so I let you in my heart. I finally let you in, because I was ready to fall for you. Being so unaware of it all, who would have known you would step all over it? You said that you would never hurt me & that you would be there to wipe that tear off of my face? But in reality, the person who hurt me the most was you.


I know that you're beginning to lose me & vice versa. I hate knowing that you and I won't be able to communicate until years later. See, I hate not knowing what the fuck you're up to, but I guess that's how break ups usually work. I hate how Nothing On You - B.O.B comes up on the radio every day, because you told me that the other girls got nothing on me, so I don't have anything to worry about. I hate how you told me that I Think Of You - Taj Jackson reminds you of me. I hate knowing that My Boo - Usher Ft. Alicia Keys will always be true in our relationship. I hate listening to Best I Ever Had - Drake, because you were the best I ever had. I hate how you were my first boyfriend and you will always be remembered. I hate how you wrote me that poem and looking at it everyday melts my heart. I hate how our chapter storybook/novel ended so soon. However, I love how you walked to my house just to stay with me for the night. I love how you surprised me with 3 roses, a teddy bear, & a poem for Valentine's day. I love how you always knew how to make me smile. I love how you're always so sweet to me even when you had the worst of days. I love how you ended 2009 with a spark and started 2010 with a fresh kick of romance. I love how you encountered many obstacles and still managed to show up in front of my house. It was all worth it. You were worth it, but shit happens. It saddens me to know that I know this was my last chance with you, because I know that you and I can never work after what had happened. You broke my heart & I don't know if I can ever trust you with my heart anymore.

You moved on. I moved on and I'm actually happy with where I'm at. & you know what? Those girls that are falling for you, you're damn right! They GOT nothing on me. I'm not one of those Glendale girls. None of those bullshit drama queens that you have to deal with. I never gave you any troubles or anything until I felt neglected by you. I'm not one of those girls that would stay for appearances, because I do listen to you. I'm here for you. Here for your miseries, for the hardship times, and for your support. I still am here for you & I put my foot on it. If you think letting me go was a mistake, best believe it was a mistake! I was infatuated. I was ready to commit. I was up for our fun-filled adventures. I cared. I still care. If you think you can find someone better, good luck with that, because you lost me. & It still kills me. Let this be my learning experience for future references. FML.

Let this be my love letter to you...

Other than that, 2 more days until Friday! & what?! Marifel works @ LHTP now. (:

FML

I've been procrastinating this whole month and the SAT exam is tomorrow. FML. Last minute study was succinct, but really, I should have studied when I had the chance. Instead of going online all the time, I should have hit the books & take practice exams. Man, I missed out on the sweet lecture time that I get to give myself. Oh well, I just hope all goes well tomorrow @ Wilson High. (:

Today staying after school was lovely. Hung out with PIC + EPhan. I haven't done that in a while. Then towards the end, I was being spied on by fellow peers including my brother. How embarrassing! I know for sure they're suspecting something, but nothing's happening so far. LOL. (;

SL for Advocacy Co-Chair

Reyes: I gotta go to practice!
SL: Why so soon? Stay with me, because I'm not letting go.
Reyes: This is like the longest hello hug ever. Haha.
Reyes: So what? I get a hello hug, but not a goodbye?

Oh man, you make me giggle.Thank you for coming down just to say hello & then leave. Thank you also for calling me heavy. Fuck you! Haha.

Got paid today! Too bad it's only $65. Spending two thirds of it on Jamie's Debut. By the way, which I am excited for! Excited that it's my second sleepover & thrilled to be one of Jamie's 18 candles. <3 I'm currently working on what to say, but I don't want to bore the audience. I have a week and a few days more to get ready. I still remember the first time I met Jamie. She was my brother's girlfriend and we grew closer right after they broke up. Ahh, I remember all the laughter we shared in Lever's class. Surprised that you asked me to be one of your candles. Save more info on the 8th. :P

I've been running errands for 2 weeks already, yet CVS still isn't planning to restock any of their shit. -__- I'm running for cabinet in my service group called "YUCA" (Youth United for Community Action). I'm running for the Advocacy Co-Chair position. If you do attend YUCA, vote for me and I guarantee you, IP (Increase the Peace) events will be as fun as this year's. If you're a senior, you're able to vote as well. So, kekeke *nudge nudge*. If you like to know why I think I'm a good candidate, please come to the YUCA meetings every other Thursdays from 4:30 p.m.- 6:00 p.m. Election will begin in two weeks. All votes count & I'm all in.

Dot Dot Dot.

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze,
& love is a riddle...

For whatever it is worth, chin up and walk proud. Stay strong. All of you.<3

Typical Thursday Evening... No, Not Really:

Anonymous: So this girl asked me to go with her to prom.
SL: Uh huh and?
Anonymous: & I said no. Do you want to know why I said no?
SL: Uhm, why?
Anonymous: Because I want to go to MY senior prom and go with YOU.
SL: LIAR!
Anonymous: No, I'm not.

You better not be lying. Freaking throw ice at you again if you are. LOL. (:

Giggled.

SL: Open your eyes and you'll know what I mean
Reyes: They are open, but all I see is you (;
SL: You're cheesy & lame, but I like that. (;