Many are flabbergasted. Some are disappointed. A few are excited. It's okay to tell me your opinions based on what I've been telling you guys. Things happen & apparently, it didn't happen @ the greatest moments of my life, but I'm ready to take a step further hoping that we both can work this out. I've been waiting & waiting you know? So why not see how this goes. (: For sure, I know in the future to come, my heart will be shattered into pieces, but for now, let's see how fun this roller coaster is. He hasn't talked to me today. I'm not worried. He's probably busy with whatever is going through his mind right now. All I'm trying to be is an understanding "girlfriend". So yeah, and the adventure begins! - Britt<3
I've had many things on my mind lately & I guess I have to stop worrying about the situations that haven't even been encountered on yet. The best thing for me to do is to "let it flow" and when a problem comes, then HANDLE. I'm glad I talked to Bestfriend today. Dropped a huge weight out of my system. <3 Hopefully, she's not hiding any feelings, because it'll hurt a lot.
These are my confessions. Man I'm thrown and I don't know what to do. I guess I gotta keep Part II of my confessions. Booya. I need to confess to you tomorrow. I don't know who told you or whom you've heard it from, but I'd like to know what's going through your mind. Hopefully, you'll accept my decision and see what's in store for us in the future.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Monday, February 15, 2010
Time
Take action & responsibilities.
Intimidated of commitment? Why you scared?
Making the wrong decisions which you'll regret later on.
Exhausted by the excuses constantly given.
It's time to realize that I'm going nowhere. Realization is the key to help me move forward. It's safe to say that things are not going smoothly. I've always had that inch of hope. I still do. That inch of hope that maybe you have changed; that you can prove it to me. Where's the change? I've been waiting & waiting so much that it hurts a lot. Go play the field if that's who you truly are. Jealousy has nothing to do with it. So for the sake of my heart & for future references, if change isn't coming, then I drop this. Time is running out & I'm not getting any younger. Days are passing by & I feel ignored. I'm saying all of this, yet I'm still waiting...
Intimidated of commitment? Why you scared?
Making the wrong decisions which you'll regret later on.
Exhausted by the excuses constantly given.
It's time to realize that I'm going nowhere. Realization is the key to help me move forward. It's safe to say that things are not going smoothly. I've always had that inch of hope. I still do. That inch of hope that maybe you have changed; that you can prove it to me. Where's the change? I've been waiting & waiting so much that it hurts a lot. Go play the field if that's who you truly are. Jealousy has nothing to do with it. So for the sake of my heart & for future references, if change isn't coming, then I drop this. Time is running out & I'm not getting any younger. Days are passing by & I feel ignored. I'm saying all of this, yet I'm still waiting...
Saturday, February 13, 2010
021210
What a day! Forreal though. Went to school, Emily + her bf came to pick me up to go practice, went to Mickey D's & vent! I've been doing a lot of venting for these past few days, only because it's your fault.
021110: "I'm moving to San Diego."
How the hell are you going to do that when you know it's fucking hard enough for me to deal with the situation that I don't see you enough already? Pretty much disappointed. *Sigh. I didn't want to believe you, but the gullibility inside of me was ready to believe. Called you Thursday night to straighten things out. Sounded like you were being shady about the whole situation. Settled a date to talk on Saturday[Today].
No texts/nor calls that day[Friday] until 11:11 p.m. You asked me if I could come outside for a while. Shocked, I was, that you were already downstairs waiting for me. In my mind, I had quite plenty of things to say straight out so I would not have to deal with "mending my broken heart" later on in the future. I came out with my hands shaking, heart aching with a disappointed look. You were there smiling. My mind was saying "Wipe that smile off that face boy, or I'll do it for you." Took a walk around the block & I asked why did you come over & what's up with the whole San Diego bullshit.
You: You might hate me after I say this..
Me: What if I already do?
You: Lol. What? Uhmm yeah, about the whole San Diego thing... Happy early...April Fools Day.. Hehe..
Me: -_________-" You're a douchebag. *walks away
I was walking towards Lincoln High. I noticed that you stopped following me & I was like "Oh shit, do not want to get kidnapped." I walked towards the apartments and I see you coming towards me with stuff in your hands which was not there a minute ago. I backed away saying "What is that?! What are you doing?" I knew you were in a rush and everything had to go by quickly so I really do not know what this is for. I'm still clueless. LMAO. Fail.
The very first day we met,
is a day I'll never forget.
My feelings towards you,
is what makes this so true.
Like a complex origami to be unfold,
in it deeply amorous throughout word never told.
Like a riddle waiting to be answered,
giving you hints but still left unanswered.
Hearing your voice in years,
was like music to both ears.
The way you make me laugh and smile,
is partly why you're so worthwhile,
When you're sad I'll make your frown disappear,
and when you cry I'll be there to wipe your tear.
You're the most beautiful girl I have ever seen ,
and if you let me be yours I'll make you my queen.
An angel God sent from above,
for whom I will truly ...
You're so unpredictable. <3 I went online to check the meaning of the roses of why you gave me 3, but they all came out with different answers, so I might as well just ask you. I don't know if they're dark red or just red. I checked all over the bear to make sure there wasn't any cameras of some sort. Hahaha, I always do this. Anyways, you're still gay for pulling that stunt. -___- It's not FUNNY! Was suppose to see you today, but it failed once again. Still leaving me thinking...
It's Chinese New Years in a couple of minutes! Too bad I'm on my rag. OH NOOOOO. Oh right, it's also Valentine's Day. How awesome is it to have both holidays on the same day? -____-" NAHHH, not like it would matter to me anyways. :P Anyways,
021110: "I'm moving to San Diego."
How the hell are you going to do that when you know it's fucking hard enough for me to deal with the situation that I don't see you enough already? Pretty much disappointed. *Sigh. I didn't want to believe you, but the gullibility inside of me was ready to believe. Called you Thursday night to straighten things out. Sounded like you were being shady about the whole situation. Settled a date to talk on Saturday[Today].
No texts/nor calls that day[Friday] until 11:11 p.m. You asked me if I could come outside for a while. Shocked, I was, that you were already downstairs waiting for me. In my mind, I had quite plenty of things to say straight out so I would not have to deal with "mending my broken heart" later on in the future. I came out with my hands shaking, heart aching with a disappointed look. You were there smiling. My mind was saying "Wipe that smile off that face boy, or I'll do it for you." Took a walk around the block & I asked why did you come over & what's up with the whole San Diego bullshit.
You: You might hate me after I say this..
Me: What if I already do?
You: Lol. What? Uhmm yeah, about the whole San Diego thing... Happy early...April Fools Day.. Hehe..
Me: -_________-" You're a douchebag. *walks away
I was walking towards Lincoln High. I noticed that you stopped following me & I was like "Oh shit, do not want to get kidnapped." I walked towards the apartments and I see you coming towards me with stuff in your hands which was not there a minute ago. I backed away saying "What is that?! What are you doing?" I knew you were in a rush and everything had to go by quickly so I really do not know what this is for. I'm still clueless. LMAO. Fail.
A teddy bear from Knotts [So Random LOL], 3 roses, & a drawing w/ a poem on the back<3
Okay, this time I was really flabbergasted. You almost left me speechless. You had to go, but I gave you kisses in return. I have to say, you disappoint me at times, but you somehow always manage to turn it around.
You'll probably hate me for doing this, but too bad.The very first day we met,
is a day I'll never forget.
My feelings towards you,
is what makes this so true.
Like a complex origami to be unfold,
in it deeply amorous throughout word never told.
Like a riddle waiting to be answered,
giving you hints but still left unanswered.
Hearing your voice in years,
was like music to both ears.
The way you make me laugh and smile,
is partly why you're so worthwhile,
When you're sad I'll make your frown disappear,
and when you cry I'll be there to wipe your tear.
You're the most beautiful girl I have ever seen ,
and if you let me be yours I'll make you my queen.
An angel God sent from above,
for whom I will truly ...
You're so unpredictable. <3 I went online to check the meaning of the roses of why you gave me 3, but they all came out with different answers, so I might as well just ask you. I don't know if they're dark red or just red. I checked all over the bear to make sure there wasn't any cameras of some sort. Hahaha, I always do this. Anyways, you're still gay for pulling that stunt. -___- It's not FUNNY! Was suppose to see you today, but it failed once again. Still leaving me thinking...
It's Chinese New Years in a couple of minutes! Too bad I'm on my rag. OH NOOOOO. Oh right, it's also Valentine's Day. How awesome is it to have both holidays on the same day? -____-" NAHHH, not like it would matter to me anyways. :P Anyways,
Sun Neen Fai Lok(:
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
New Semester, New Classes
Apparently, Ms. Minke gave me:
1st: H Statistics ; Mojica
2nd: Drawing ; Staley
3rd: Chemistry ; Mendez
4th: Keyboarding ; Inai
I'm in desperate need of a U.S. History class. I'm hoping Ms. Minke would summons me in to change my first to a U.S. History class. Most definitely, do not want to take History during the summer. Although, I'm really looking forward to taking Stats. It's chill in that class. I like it. (: I'll see what Minke has in store for me.
Sloth, one of the deadly sins, have invaded my determination & has increased my procrastination. What a huge failure. I must start focusing on my academics rather than my social life. I must sleep early now. My bedtime is now @ midnight. -_____- I need to start sleeping @ 10 or 11 p.m. instead. Oh boy, I miss English class. It was memorable & fun. I miss reading novels. Which reminds me, I have to finish the books that I haven't finished reading yet.
CNY is coming up in a few days! So is Valentine's day. Anybody find their valentine yet? (: Awestruck for the ones who did. I was listening to the radio today and if you wanted to buy flowers for your valentine, you should go to www.proflowers.com. Order some lovely flowers &/or chocolates for your valentine. Roses guaranteed to last about a week. She'll be flattered. Somewhere around the corner should be a code box. Type in "Strawberry" as the code & you'll get a discount or some sort. Thanks to the "Steve Harvey Morning Show." (: Just a tip for the guys out there that do not know what the eff to give.
1st: H Statistics ; Mojica
2nd: Drawing ; Staley
3rd: Chemistry ; Mendez
4th: Keyboarding ; Inai
I'm in desperate need of a U.S. History class. I'm hoping Ms. Minke would summons me in to change my first to a U.S. History class. Most definitely, do not want to take History during the summer. Although, I'm really looking forward to taking Stats. It's chill in that class. I like it. (: I'll see what Minke has in store for me.
Sloth, one of the deadly sins, have invaded my determination & has increased my procrastination. What a huge failure. I must start focusing on my academics rather than my social life. I must sleep early now. My bedtime is now @ midnight. -_____- I need to start sleeping @ 10 or 11 p.m. instead. Oh boy, I miss English class. It was memorable & fun. I miss reading novels. Which reminds me, I have to finish the books that I haven't finished reading yet.
CNY is coming up in a few days! So is Valentine's day. Anybody find their valentine yet? (: Awestruck for the ones who did. I was listening to the radio today and if you wanted to buy flowers for your valentine, you should go to www.proflowers.com. Order some lovely flowers &/or chocolates for your valentine. Roses guaranteed to last about a week. She'll be flattered. Somewhere around the corner should be a code box. Type in "Strawberry" as the code & you'll get a discount or some sort. Thanks to the "Steve Harvey Morning Show." (: Just a tip for the guys out there that do not know what the eff to give.
:l
At times I wish I couldn't understand Cantonese. That why it wouldn't hurt as much to hear what my parents argue about.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Cal. Final
Bombed it, but whatever. I feel relieved. After knowing how much I suck @ this subject, it's time to move the fuck on. (: Absolutely ecstatic about Term C & D. Class w/ JZL/PIC. Finally! I don't get to manage the Boys' Tennis Team. What a bummer. I needed to take a "Technology" class for graduation requirements. I haven't taken any Art + Technology classes yet. It's about time I get it over with during Term C & D.
1st: Painting ; Staley
2nd: U.S. History ; ?? < Peterson perhaps?
3rd: Chemistry ; Mendez. [ Do not want to take Physics for CSTs. LOL Might as well take 4 years of Science]
4th: Keyboarding ; No clue.
Easy, breezy classes! I'm excited! Hopefully, I'll raise my 3.78 GPA to a 3.8. Please Canny, give me that damn A. I need it!
P R A C T I C E ; Need to work on moves, Sandy.
1st: Painting ; Staley
2nd: U.S. History ; ?? < Peterson perhaps?
3rd: Chemistry ; Mendez. [ Do not want to take Physics for CSTs. LOL Might as well take 4 years of Science]
4th: Keyboarding ; No clue.
Easy, breezy classes! I'm excited! Hopefully, I'll raise my 3.78 GPA to a 3.8. Please Canny, give me that damn A. I need it!
P R A C T I C E ; Need to work on moves, Sandy.
No escuela en el lunes!
[It's been a month & a few days. Finally, I'll get a chance to see your face again. (:]
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