Vent, Vent, & S`more Vent

I feel so heartbroken & overwhelmed lately. I just need to get everything out of my system & just confess what I truly feel. Since hiding my emotion is still a plus, I think it's better to just let everything out, so I can just focus on my main problems.

A few days ago, Q and I took a walk around our neighborhood. If you're reading Q, I enjoyed that walk. (: It actually made my night.We talked & walked for a while. He suggested some advices to me & I took them. I've actually been thinking about it like everyday. Thank you. (: Just now, talked to Travis <3 & he also gave me some advices.

Anyways, I'm walking through the halls of VHHS, pacing from the main hall to Suffel Hall, coming down from there to walk towards the Knapp Gym, passing the student store, to the cafeteria, walking out of it, to the tennis room, & all I see are couples here or there. Every time I pass by, they're either smooching or cuddling. I go "Aww, that's cute. Now can you move. You're in my way love birds." [Not literally, I'm not that of a bitch]  I do feel that "awestruck" feeling though. Awww, cuties! Tehehe. I compare that to my love life. It's like FML. Thanks for rubbing it in my face! I guess what I'm trying to say is that it's surprisingly, extremely difficult to be interested in a certain someone whom you do not see everyday. It sucks to know that the only possible communication during the day is through technology.

I know you're busy everyday & how can you possibly have time to talk to me? My heart sinks just knowing that I didn't talk to you for the whole day. Just one text a day will give me a sign of relief. As I'm typing this, I'm thinking of the time when my friend wrote something to me like this. My reaction was "O.O". Fuck that shit, I don't want to sound like a creeper or anything. LOL. Danggg it, I get so off topic! Anyways, at times it makes me wonder if I ever cross your mind during the day or do others catch your attention. I hate it when our conversations die now a days, & we have to bring it back up somehow. I just hope that I'm not gradually slipping away from you & vice versa. I hope it never happens. I'd like to sit down with you & just chat until we fall asleep. I absolutely hate it when I always have to vent about the same subject whenever I'm feeling insecure.

I remember I didn't have to dealt with any "boy issues" until you came back into my life. Knowing that I haven't felt this way in a super long time, it's all new & fresh to me again. I'm WEAK again.

Urban Dictionary :

Missing someone isn't about how long its been since you've seen them last or the amount of time since you last talked.
It's about that very moment when you are doing something and you wish they were right there with you.

 

Fuck, I hate this feeling. LOL BOO. There's a couple of reason why I decided to type this tonight :

1. There is a huge fucking spider in the bathroom & I'm afraid to go ninja on it. It's keeping me away from showering.

2. Like I said, I had to vent.

3. Wanted to thank Q & Travis. (:

4. Haven't blogged like this since forever.

5. Daddy isn't coming home until later on, which means I'm forced to go Ninja in my bathroom & go hunt the mother `effer. Damn it!

They Got Nothing On You

Gotta get outta here. Far away from you. Now I'm going cross country.

Just got out of the windy city

Going through the desert

Gettin` away from your love.

Has been playing on my Pod for half the day. Oh man, I <3 Jackie Boyz. As a matter of fact, our work out song is by them. Hahaha. To the left, left, left, on the right, right, right, in the back, back back, on the side side. Good job girls. I like our dances. (: I just need to make more choreo for Trey Songz.

Haven't had the chance to vent on Blogger, or actually have the time to type on the daily basis. Once again, I bombed yet another exam from Calculus. That's it. I lost faith in this stupid bull crap. I GIB UP. ):< I'm not going to make it to Term C/D. FUCK IT. I hadn't realized I suck so much @ math, until you proved to me that I did. Calculus owned me. Yadayadaya, I must GTFO.

I need to: 

Go to the movies w/ him.

 Laugh hysterically w/ him soon.

Call him "Cutie Patootie".

Hold him tightly.

See him.

- Do you see a pattern?[Henry from "What I Like About You"]

Henry: Henry, Vince, Ben, Vince

Henry: Do you see a pattern?

Holly: The pattern IS VINCE!

-Hahahaha, oh god! I miss that show.

 

 I hope I'm not getting too attached. I am just as afraid as you are of the future. Let's make it worth while. <3

Wet Thursday.

Hahahaha. Sigh.

Rain rain,

Go away.

Come again another day.

I'm excited for manana. It's the Girls' Tennis Banquet. Get ready to pig out @ Sizzlers. Weee` Although tomorrow will be raining, we'll make the best of it. Best believeeeeee. After tomorrow, we won't be having the senior girls with us anymore. ): Fucccccccccck, I'm going to miss you guys.

Volleyball practice tomorrow @ El Sereno. GG. Tell us a day before. x___________-. GREAT JOB. Then the next day is Ip meeting. Hopefully, I have enough time to take the metro to Glendale just for Megan. <3. If I don't, I'm seriously sorry. I'll make it up to you. (: It's raining super hard right now. I don't like it. Homework time! No time for blogging. DAMN.

Tehehe.

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(:

Success!

I have finally accomplished my goal of not drinking any type of soda for a year. It was actually on the 16th of January, but I got lazy to blog so I'm blogging now. (: I'm trying to go for another year, but I'm thinking I'll drink some occasionally.

Two days ago, Britt came over to hang out, because we did not have anything else better to do. We didn't have plans either. She came to mi casa & I showed her the photos of the Won Kok restaurant. Yes, it's still running through our minds. While she was looking @ the photos, I was doing laundry which took an hour. LOL sorry boo. After laundry, we were craving for snacks, so we walked around Lincoln Heights to buy food. We went inside the 99 cents store to grab two bags of chips. We stepped out and Britt noticed a man sitting down selling these yarn bracelets thingy that everyone happens to have now. I know Bestfriend has one. Anyways, that man was a total douche bag. He constantly kept on making racist jokes & pulling the whole "I want an Asian girlfriend" shit. I mean he was chill & all, but the racial comments was pretty annoying after the second time. Britt said she wanted to buy one, but she didn't have enough money, so the guy was like "If you give me the bag of Funyuns, then I'll make you the bracelet." We were like holy shizzzz, that's a great deal. But we ended up not getting the bracelet, because he took forever with the first customer & he skipped us. Anyways, he cracked a stupid ass joke, but I laughed my ass off.

Walter [LMAO, this girl called him that, because he looks like a Walter]: What did the gay horse eat for breakfast?
Britt & I : Uhh? I don't know. What?
Walter: *snaps finger. Haaaaaaaaaaay.
Britt & I : HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Stuuuuuuupid.

This guy wants & is craving for an Asian girlfriend. *Sigh. He wanted us to teach him how to speak or write chinese, but we told him that we were like not fluent. We're like brain-washed Asians. Yeah, he was a total creep. He knew how to say I <3 you, free, & something else. When we left, he kept on shouting that out. We were like "Sigh, what a creep." He looked like a bum, but he says he has a house in Lincoln Heights. Oh geez, I hope I don't run into him again. We basically kept him company & talked to him for an hour, & we didn't even get bracelets. LMAO What a damn fail. Story of my life. Hahaha.

Kelly wants people to do the Asian Pageant w/ her. (: So please do.
Act: Hip-hop Dancing.



Damn you Michael Matienzo, I miss you. -_______-"

At times, I feel...

"In consequence, I’m inclined to reserve all judgments, a habit that has opened up many curious natures to me and also made me the victim of not a few veteran bores."

- The Great Gatsby [F.S.Fitzgerald]

Friday Night..

Congratulations to the Lady Dons of VHHS who won their games against Canoga Park. Stayed after school to watch Bestfriend's game. Loser didn't even notice us & thought we weren't there @ the game to support her. We even bought her food! She ended up munching on her subway sandwich. Gave food to Benita to gobble up, then Bestfriend says she wants the food. GG. Had some awkward + LOL moments.

Later on ....

We played freeze tag in the dark, on the quiet/deserted looking streets of Tujunga. We were waiting for the school bus to come & take us home, but we were thinking of having some fun before we leave. Hell to the yes it was fun.    

Objective: Get runned over by a car, you're it. LOL no, not really.

 We ran & ran & ran. Fun exercise. Too bad the bus came early & we had to leave. We should do that more often, better yet, you should try this. It's so fun. You have no idea.

 You know what this section is about.

"... I'm not sure if I've told you this before, but out of all the girls, you are most definitely the one I care the most about."

(: I would type what I wrote, but I stupidly, accidentally deleted it. ):

P.S.: I hope this is the truth & that it'll keep my emotions in better health, because I'm allergic to bullshit.

Happy Birthday to my dear, Marjorett Ann Vital! <3