Vent, Vent, & S`more Vent

I feel so heartbroken & overwhelmed lately. I just need to get everything out of my system & just confess what I truly feel. Since hiding my emotion is still a plus, I think it's better to just let everything out, so I can just focus on my main problems.

A few days ago, Q and I took a walk around our neighborhood. If you're reading Q, I enjoyed that walk. (: It actually made my night.We talked & walked for a while. He suggested some advices to me & I took them. I've actually been thinking about it like everyday. Thank you. (: Just now, talked to Travis <3 & he also gave me some advices.

Anyways, I'm walking through the halls of VHHS, pacing from the main hall to Suffel Hall, coming down from there to walk towards the Knapp Gym, passing the student store, to the cafeteria, walking out of it, to the tennis room, & all I see are couples here or there. Every time I pass by, they're either smooching or cuddling. I go "Aww, that's cute. Now can you move. You're in my way love birds." [Not literally, I'm not that of a bitch]  I do feel that "awestruck" feeling though. Awww, cuties! Tehehe. I compare that to my love life. It's like FML. Thanks for rubbing it in my face! I guess what I'm trying to say is that it's surprisingly, extremely difficult to be interested in a certain someone whom you do not see everyday. It sucks to know that the only possible communication during the day is through technology.

I know you're busy everyday & how can you possibly have time to talk to me? My heart sinks just knowing that I didn't talk to you for the whole day. Just one text a day will give me a sign of relief. As I'm typing this, I'm thinking of the time when my friend wrote something to me like this. My reaction was "O.O". Fuck that shit, I don't want to sound like a creeper or anything. LOL. Danggg it, I get so off topic! Anyways, at times it makes me wonder if I ever cross your mind during the day or do others catch your attention. I hate it when our conversations die now a days, & we have to bring it back up somehow. I just hope that I'm not gradually slipping away from you & vice versa. I hope it never happens. I'd like to sit down with you & just chat until we fall asleep. I absolutely hate it when I always have to vent about the same subject whenever I'm feeling insecure.

I remember I didn't have to dealt with any "boy issues" until you came back into my life. Knowing that I haven't felt this way in a super long time, it's all new & fresh to me again. I'm WEAK again.

Urban Dictionary :

Missing someone isn't about how long its been since you've seen them last or the amount of time since you last talked.
It's about that very moment when you are doing something and you wish they were right there with you.

 

Fuck, I hate this feeling. LOL BOO. There's a couple of reason why I decided to type this tonight :

1. There is a huge fucking spider in the bathroom & I'm afraid to go ninja on it. It's keeping me away from showering.

2. Like I said, I had to vent.

3. Wanted to thank Q & Travis. (:

4. Haven't blogged like this since forever.

5. Daddy isn't coming home until later on, which means I'm forced to go Ninja in my bathroom & go hunt the mother `effer. Damn it!

They Got Nothing On You

Gotta get outta here. Far away from you. Now I'm going cross country.

Just got out of the windy city

Going through the desert

Gettin` away from your love.

Has been playing on my Pod for half the day. Oh man, I <3 Jackie Boyz. As a matter of fact, our work out song is by them. Hahaha. To the left, left, left, on the right, right, right, in the back, back back, on the side side. Good job girls. I like our dances. (: I just need to make more choreo for Trey Songz.

Haven't had the chance to vent on Blogger, or actually have the time to type on the daily basis. Once again, I bombed yet another exam from Calculus. That's it. I lost faith in this stupid bull crap. I GIB UP. ):< I'm not going to make it to Term C/D. FUCK IT. I hadn't realized I suck so much @ math, until you proved to me that I did. Calculus owned me. Yadayadaya, I must GTFO.

I need to: 

Go to the movies w/ him.

 Laugh hysterically w/ him soon.

Call him "Cutie Patootie".

Hold him tightly.

See him.

- Do you see a pattern?[Henry from "What I Like About You"]

Henry: Henry, Vince, Ben, Vince

Henry: Do you see a pattern?

Holly: The pattern IS VINCE!

-Hahahaha, oh god! I miss that show.

 

 I hope I'm not getting too attached. I am just as afraid as you are of the future. Let's make it worth while. <3

Wet Thursday.

Hahahaha. Sigh.

Rain rain,

Go away.

Come again another day.

I'm excited for manana. It's the Girls' Tennis Banquet. Get ready to pig out @ Sizzlers. Weee` Although tomorrow will be raining, we'll make the best of it. Best believeeeeee. After tomorrow, we won't be having the senior girls with us anymore. ): Fucccccccccck, I'm going to miss you guys.

Volleyball practice tomorrow @ El Sereno. GG. Tell us a day before. x___________-. GREAT JOB. Then the next day is Ip meeting. Hopefully, I have enough time to take the metro to Glendale just for Megan. <3. If I don't, I'm seriously sorry. I'll make it up to you. (: It's raining super hard right now. I don't like it. Homework time! No time for blogging. DAMN.

Tehehe.

http://5.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_kuzqd2FcEe1qzkpfdo1_500.jpg

(:

Success!

I have finally accomplished my goal of not drinking any type of soda for a year. It was actually on the 16th of January, but I got lazy to blog so I'm blogging now. (: I'm trying to go for another year, but I'm thinking I'll drink some occasionally.

Two days ago, Britt came over to hang out, because we did not have anything else better to do. We didn't have plans either. She came to mi casa & I showed her the photos of the Won Kok restaurant. Yes, it's still running through our minds. While she was looking @ the photos, I was doing laundry which took an hour. LOL sorry boo. After laundry, we were craving for snacks, so we walked around Lincoln Heights to buy food. We went inside the 99 cents store to grab two bags of chips. We stepped out and Britt noticed a man sitting down selling these yarn bracelets thingy that everyone happens to have now. I know Bestfriend has one. Anyways, that man was a total douche bag. He constantly kept on making racist jokes & pulling the whole "I want an Asian girlfriend" shit. I mean he was chill & all, but the racial comments was pretty annoying after the second time. Britt said she wanted to buy one, but she didn't have enough money, so the guy was like "If you give me the bag of Funyuns, then I'll make you the bracelet." We were like holy shizzzz, that's a great deal. But we ended up not getting the bracelet, because he took forever with the first customer & he skipped us. Anyways, he cracked a stupid ass joke, but I laughed my ass off.

Walter [LMAO, this girl called him that, because he looks like a Walter]: What did the gay horse eat for breakfast?
Britt & I : Uhh? I don't know. What?
Walter: *snaps finger. Haaaaaaaaaaay.
Britt & I : HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Stuuuuuuupid.

This guy wants & is craving for an Asian girlfriend. *Sigh. He wanted us to teach him how to speak or write chinese, but we told him that we were like not fluent. We're like brain-washed Asians. Yeah, he was a total creep. He knew how to say I <3 you, free, & something else. When we left, he kept on shouting that out. We were like "Sigh, what a creep." He looked like a bum, but he says he has a house in Lincoln Heights. Oh geez, I hope I don't run into him again. We basically kept him company & talked to him for an hour, & we didn't even get bracelets. LMAO What a damn fail. Story of my life. Hahaha.

Kelly wants people to do the Asian Pageant w/ her. (: So please do.
Act: Hip-hop Dancing.



Damn you Michael Matienzo, I miss you. -_______-"

At times, I feel...

"In consequence, I’m inclined to reserve all judgments, a habit that has opened up many curious natures to me and also made me the victim of not a few veteran bores."

- The Great Gatsby [F.S.Fitzgerald]

Friday Night..

Congratulations to the Lady Dons of VHHS who won their games against Canoga Park. Stayed after school to watch Bestfriend's game. Loser didn't even notice us & thought we weren't there @ the game to support her. We even bought her food! She ended up munching on her subway sandwich. Gave food to Benita to gobble up, then Bestfriend says she wants the food. GG. Had some awkward + LOL moments.

Later on ....

We played freeze tag in the dark, on the quiet/deserted looking streets of Tujunga. We were waiting for the school bus to come & take us home, but we were thinking of having some fun before we leave. Hell to the yes it was fun.    

Objective: Get runned over by a car, you're it. LOL no, not really.

 We ran & ran & ran. Fun exercise. Too bad the bus came early & we had to leave. We should do that more often, better yet, you should try this. It's so fun. You have no idea.

 You know what this section is about.

"... I'm not sure if I've told you this before, but out of all the girls, you are most definitely the one I care the most about."

(: I would type what I wrote, but I stupidly, accidentally deleted it. ):

P.S.: I hope this is the truth & that it'll keep my emotions in better health, because I'm allergic to bullshit.

Happy Birthday to my dear, Marjorett Ann Vital! <3

Thursday Night.

Who has time for blogging now a days? D:

What a Drag..

School. Work. Bruised nose once again.w

Lucky me, looks about right for tomorrow again..

GG, I've seen them enough @ school; now @ work?! You have got to be kidding me. Jesus Christ. Are you playing with me? ):

It's been 4 days...

& I haven't blogged since! I've done a lot in 4 days & I don't want to type everything down. LOL. My lazy ass is not up for it. A huge sigh coming in, because school resumes tomorrow. I don't want to go back, but who does?! Damn, if only school resumes next week, then I would have been a happy camper. This winter vacation has been the best, but what a nice way to end it by staying @ home doing nothing. Anyways...

Two days ago, I was out with a few of my girlfraaaaaans. I helped cleaning Emily's room except for her desk. Now that, she's on her own. LOL sorry. Cleaned her corners, her bed, her bags, her closet, & goddammnnnnnn, took about 2 hours to get through the corners. You can finally walk in there. :D Britt came over & her papa dropped us off @ Smart&Final Extra to buy ingredients for us to bake homemade cookies for Dennis & Trinh. The cookies were bomb. We also made our own frosting too! Success! (:

Dennis & Trinh picked us up from Emily's casa & we were off to Vittoria's Restaurant in Alhambra. Bomb Italian food, except the alfredo sauce was thick. Britt wanted to share some scary/haunted stories to bring up the conversations. Those who grew up in Lincoln Heights from the early 1990s would know about the Won Kok restaurant before it got burned down. It was located across the street from Bank of America next to "The Airliner" & a dentistry or a Barber Shop. Now it is reconstructed & now called "Arroyo Vistas Medical Center". Every Asian in town would go to Won Kok restaurant to eat Dim Sum in the mornings or have late night parties or weddings. Surprisingly, last night I just found out that my parents had their wedding reception in that restaurant on November 23,1991. Anyways, besides that part, that restaurant was history. It got burned down twice. The first time was in 1984. The former owner, Vincent Hom was murdered in that restaurant; I believe second floor. He was burned to death inside the building. Second time, was an unknown accident that caused another fire. Apparently, now this place is "haunted". You hear kitchen noises in a secluded room on the second floor. Dennis said that it was "rats with their spatulas". HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. We drove by there & by far it looks like one of the creepiest building in town. It's a trip. I found at least 30 photos from the restaurant & it is not how Britt or Emily described it. CSI : Chatroom Scene Investigation. HAHAHAH stupid. I've been researching and researching, but found nothing. It's definitely a trip. Every time I pass by this building, I'm going to think what could have been or maybe something or someone somewhere can give me a sign or anything to this unaware about. Britt & I have this bad vibe that if I enter in, we're going to bring up something that should be untouched. We're probably going to disturb Vincent Hom & he's going to give us a paranormal experience. Eeeeeek, yet we're so curious.

This weekend, as you can see, I've been bored. I've searched up the history of Lincoln Heights, & it's amazing. This town has been one of the oldest town in Los Angeles. Best believe, we use to be a town filled with wealthy people & their Queen-Anne Victorian Mansions. That explains all the huge mansions that have been constructed to apartments. I hate that. Also found out that we use to have a prison by Goodwill. Mabel & I were searching things about this jail & now it is "haunted". Mabel has the balls to look @ videos of the haunted prison. I finally did, because I was curious. Yet another bad vibe about this place. If only I went back to that time of the life, I would love life. People now living in Lincoln Heights are now destroying this town w/ their pollution & violence. It went from high-classed to the ghetto. *Sigh. I would add more but there's too much history about this town & I love more to keep researching about it. Lincoln Heights <3

I actually ended up typing a butt load of shit & this is just the beginning. LOL. Going back to work tomorrow! Hopefully, I'll get my kids again. I love them. <3 I miss my partner too! MM talk later on. (:

What's Your Happiness?

Woke up, flipped the channels, & started watching Rachael Ray. According to Doctor Happy Lady, 50% of your happiness is already a set point from your genetics, 40% of your happiness is controllable, & 10% of your happiness is based on life circumstances. Those life circumstances you can not control and are usually from an accident, death of a family member/friend, break ups, recession, & etc. But in those 40% you can actually turn your frown upside down by smiling & actually set yourself in a good mood. Just a little tip from the show. (:

I've realized that the only way I can ever be happy is when others surrounding me are content. If others aren't, I feel obligated to change something, to actually do something to cheer them up. It does not matter whether shopping, playing video games, watching a movie, cooking, or even spending time w/ them makes them happy. As long as I feel like I'm needed in their life, I'm set to do my job.

You're stuck on me and my laughing eyes
I cant pretend though I try to hide
I like you. I like you.

I think I felt my heart skip a beat
I'm standing here and I can hardly breathe
You got me. Yeah, you got me. 

-Colbie Caillat 

 

Super early morning talks with a boy w/ down syndrome. Hahaha. Lasted 3 hours, 50 minutes, & 27 seconds. Both fell asleep on each other for almost 2 & a half hours. Didn't talk much, but at least we did.

Oh Baby!

My soldier died on me yesterday ): I've had my baby for about 10 years & it finally decided to die on me this morning @ 2 AM. Stupid brother blamed it on my IPOD. Saying that the device made the computer lag while he was watching a movie. So stupid ass decided to press the shut down button. You're not suppose to press that button unless it's for a legitimate reason. It automatically crashed when we tried to put it on safe mode. Luckily, brother revived this baby. Laptop that has been idle for 2 years has finally revived. Bye bye Log Viewer. Bye bye music. Bye bye Saved Photos. Bye bye documents. 3. Life's a bitch. Bad Karma. GG.

William reads my blogs. (: He also likes to assume things. Hahaha. Now watching The Omen w/ JZL. Our list @ http://horrorlist100.tumblr.com

MM says...

He reads my blogs even though he thinks blogging is boring. Yay! (: I hope it was not the first entry blog that made you think. I really hope it wasn't. As you can see, it was way before any of this had happened. "It's Nothing" always refers to something depressing. So, please? I really hope it was really nothing. (:

Community

Emily, JZL, & I arrived @ Steven's house looking like sorority sisters w/ our outfits. LOL! We had our "Community" hoodies on w/ jeans + Vans. Sorry Britt <3. Still love you! Happy 18th Eddy! I <3ed your cake though. The strawberries were bomb. I've never tasted any strawberries sweeter than that! Yummy! Everything was bomb, except we didn't get what we wanted. ): It's all good. NEXT TIME! All of us were having a great time until Tommy showed up w/ this white bitch that ruined everything. I mean she was chill at first, but SHIT, after an hour of her annoying ass, I wanted, actually all of us wanted to deck her. x_____- She would not shut the fuck up. After the whole incident that happened downstairs, we had to go upstairs. BITCH STILL WOULD NOT SHUT THE FUCK UP. JZL & I were going to bust a move.

Girl: *Talk, talk, talk, talk, laugh, talk, talk*
Me: If you don't shut the fuck up, I am going to beat your ass right now.
Girl: Dude what is your problem? And hey, what's your name? LOL!!!!!
Me: -_____- Oh my god....

If you were there, you would not know how much you wanted to bang your head on the wall. ): LOL @ this part.

Girl: What's your name?!
JZL: * Looks at her phone
Girl: Okay, I'm gonna call you cellphone
JZL: -___- It's Janice.
Girl: What's your name?!
Me: Sandy.
Girl: I am so not going to remember that when I wake up.
Girl: What are you holding?
Me: Oh bitch, you are not going to fucking call me BJ.
Everyone: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Me: -_______-

Anyways, besides that, we all had a fun night. Sort of.


MM & I finally talked on the phone. I called to say good night. (: After the phone call, I was content.

Scratch that

Instead of heading towards the Americana/Glendale for the 4th time, MM persuaded JZL to let me spend time w/ him @ Six Flags Magic Mountain. Before the whole cancellation, I had already arranged plans w/ JZL for the whole day + night, because it was the end of 2009, & what more fun is it to spend it w/ my lovely g-daughter. I repeatedly told myself that I was not one of those friends that would ditch a friend for a boy, because I'm not one of those people. ): However, seeing how stubborn he is, he decided to ask for JZL's number & told me that he was going to ask politely. Hahaha, that loser. Turns out that JZL did not mind, & she wanted me to go with MM since I can go with her to the mall any day, but Six Flags is like once in a while. Since I told her that it was all good, & that I already made plans with her, so I'll just enjoy the last of 2009 w/ her, she told me to go, seeing that she can't be one of those friends that "can't understand." That made my heart melt. I know you're reading this JZL, just so you know I'll make it up to you. (: I must say, after returning home from Six Flags, going w/ him was the best idea.

Woke up @ 7:28 AM, because he messaged me on my phone. Barbara[his sister] picked me up from my house @ like 9 something. She is like amazingly gorgeous. NO LIE. LOL (:. I met her&his friends. They're chill. :D It was pretty awkward for me, but I couldn't really express myself yet. If I can't do that, I stay quiet. Hahaha. We arrived @ Six Flags like an hour later. It was so packed that day! It was cold too! I had a lot of fun though. I enjoyed spending time w/ them. Went on :

Superman : The Escape: [2] MM dragged me through the wheelchair access the second time to cut & go again. It was short, but a fun experience w/ the penny drop. Lol. (:

Colossus: [3] They changed the seats. Thank God! No more wooden seats. It still hurt my ass though. D:

Déjà Vu: [1] It was nice. Sat in front w/ MM. Loved the adrenaline rush while going down.

Goldrusher: [1] Wtf kind of ride was this?!

Some little kid: Omg, this was as fast as Tatsu

Me: Not even! This is a baby ride! MUST GET OUT.

LOL @ the guy behind our cart that was cracking jokes.

Ninja: [1] Hiya! LMAO! Not thrilling, nor exciting.

The Riddler's Revenge: [3] I liked this ride. (: Although, riding it during the cold night was not a fun experience. I was freezing my ass off. Rush of adrenaline again.

Scrambler: [1] It's a fun carnival ride. I kept on hitting MM on the chest though. I think I almost crushed him. Blame the ride, not me! LOL ):

Scream: [4] No one was in line for this one. We always came @ the right time. I screamed like hell just because it was called "Scream". I think I was the loudest one. Hahaha. A fun ride!

Tatsu: [2] Favorite Ride! One of the last people on the last ride of Tatsu to experience the thrill for the end of 2009. The lady that sat next to me was hilarious. I loved her laugh. It made me smile. 

Me: Omg Michael! Let's go on Tatsu. I wanna fly! Let's go flying! 

Him: What? You don't fly. 

Me: Yes, you do! You have your legs up and everything. [Totally sounded wrong]

TERMINATOR® SALVATION™: THE RIDE: [2] I have to say, one of the best rides there is. Super fast & thrilling. I hurt my ear on his hard ass shoulders though. D:Waiting was a bitch, but during the process was good. LOL @ the little movie scenes in there. 

Viper: [3] This ride hurts my neck so much. Still fun though. :D

X2: [2] Again, waiting in line was a bitch. I think we waited for like an hour and a half or so, & the second time we waited for like 40 minutes. It's an adventurous ride. You must ride this! Most exciting ride ever. Best feel of adrenaline rush. If it's a cold day, the fire will keep you warm for a second. It's amazing!

Did not get a chance to go on Goliath, Revolution, or Batman. ): Goliath was closed, due to repainting. Did not know where Revolution was & kept on forgetting to go. Batman was closed later when we finally had a chance to go. But it's all good, I had plenty of fun w/ him. We came across the stupid claw machines. We wasted about like $5 trying to grab the PSP or the IPOD Nano or the ITOUCH. We had the right position, but it kept on slipping off every time the claw was getting a hold of it. RIP OFF. We came back & someone got one of the PSPs. I lost faith in that machine after the second time, he wanted to try again. Hahaha.

It was almost time for the New Years celebration w/ KIIS FM + AMP Radio. We heard one of the employees say that there was going to be fireworks when it starts. It was 11:58 PM after we got off Tatsu. We were heading towards the front to see the celebration. We ran over there. We ran a lot that day! Freaking, fuck my jeans. They kept on falling down. LMAO. So I was running with my hand holding onto my jeans while running.

MM: We have 2 min. left. Hurry! Let's go!
Me: LET'S GO! [Of course he'll be ahead of me by like miles.]
Crowd: 18, 17, 16
Me: OMG MICHAEL! YOU'RE TOO FAST.
Crowd: 8, 7, 6, 5
Me: Oh my god, FML. FML FML.
Crowd: 4, 3, 2, 1! HAPPY NEW YEAR! *Fireworks starts, I see the 2010 light up.
Me: NO! DAMN! * Stops running. *Walks up to him. HAPPY NEW YEAR! (:
MM: Happy New Year!

We walked over to the side and there we had our midnight kiss. Woot. (: I mean, we had plenty before but this was special, because it's the start of a new year! We walked to the front, and first thing I hear is fucking Miley Cyrus and her fucking Party In the Damn Fucking USA. Seriously?! Way to start New Years. LOL. ):

*Movin` my hips like "Yeah!" Got my hands up, they're playin` my song*
Me: Oh hell no. HELLLLLL NO.
MM: What? Oh, hahahahahaha
*& Now I'm gonna say "Yeah! It's a party in the USA"*
Me: Way to start New Years! ):<
MM: Hahaha.
*Yeah! It's a party in the USA"...*

We arrived @ the front & I see a whole bunch of people. I wrap my arms around him and he kisses me on the cheek. Some random person came over and he said:
Some Random Person: * Tap, tap* Hey, you should kiss her, it's New Years!
Us: Hahahahaha.

& then you know what happens next. After the excitement & joy, we went home. I could have slept over @ his house, because my parents did not care if I came home late this morning. Wow, that's a first, but then Brittany boo said it was not a good idea. I guess go (:

Me: Okay, I think I'm going to knock out right now. Good night. Thank you for the lovely day+night+the start of a new year. :)
MM: Lol haha. Alright then goodnight. Thank you for coming and making my day/night/morning lol :] sweet dreams.
MM: P.s. I had a lot of fun today :] and sorry for making you jog so much.

Another long blog for those who enjoy reading. I wish you a Happy New Year and the best year to come!